well i searched for some action on reddit all but promised myself i will not watch even if ill found something (total bullshit), wondered will this be a problem for me?
I would say yes, it's at least as bad. Hear me out, the seeking is a huge part of the dopamine spike and addiction. Dopamine is released in anticipation of a reward and is the motivator for seeking pleasure. It is released in natural amounts to cause us to seek out mates, food, water, shelter etc.. and it is the prime culprit of the Coolidge effect which leads us to seek out new mates and is also the reason why many porn addicts edge. It causes us to enjoy the seeking more than the actual reward sometimes and is also why we have issues from porn. It would not be the same level of dangerous if we all just found one video to always finish to. We constantly seek novelty and this is the real problem, it never leaves us satisfied, just wanting. That is dopamine aka the seeking chemical.
I would say no, but take this into account for the future and also look into what Gary Wilson says on the subject and look into the effects of seeking rewards and dopamine.
The seeking, per se, isn't a condition for a reset; however, if you're not taking steps to change this unhealthy seeking behavior then it's only a matter of time until you relapse. View it like a roller coaster. The roller coaster builds up anticipation when it does the slow climb to the top. By the time you get to the top the coaster is ready to shoot down the tracks to reach its logical end. If you seek porn then you're making that climb to shoot down relapse mountain.
Your sig says you're without PMO for 8 days. If this is still true, don't reset. If it isn't true, reset.
When was the last time you ever searched something with the intention of not looking at it? It defeats the purpose. I have never looked for a specific woman's dress while telling myself I would not click on it because, well, I have no intention or care to buy a woman's dress. Searching porn and telling yourself you're not going to click on it, well, I may want to click on it. Congrats on your 8 days!
Don't reset your counter just because you searched for porn. Instead, reset your counter when you inevitably relapse because you aren't taking searches seriously.
