Excited to start this journey

I'm from South Africa. 39 years old and recently married. I haven't jerked off without porn for about 10 years I'd say. I also can't come sexually unless I think of porn. Masturbating is actually easier for me than sex and my wife is irritated about our lack of sex. I masturbate about once a day on average. But this can go up to 3 times a day if I'm on holiday and alone. It's been quite a tough year financially. I lost a lot of money in a business venture so I was depressed for a bit but definitely bouncing back from that. I've been eating healthily for a week and working on some CBT self help books. I'm trying to do PMO for two weeks (my wife is away) and will then discuss this NoFap journey of mine with her to see if I can stay off the Orgasm part for at least 30 days. I'd like to stay off porn and masturbation for 90 days. I am going to take it one day at a time though. I'm committed but I'm not going beat myself up on this journey as I can get quite intense with myself sometimes. It's Day 0 and I'm excited for the journey ahead!

 

Thanks D.J. I've actually seen your 'In Case You Didn't Know' page and I've bookmarked it for future reference. It looks like a really great weapon against fapping and porn use.

Not to get too philosophical about my journey, and I hope this in no way is offensive to anyone, but I saw the term NoFap whilst browsing the net, and I had no idea what it was. I looked it up and then was lead to this site. PM has never really exhibited as a big problem for me in my life. I don't feel guilty about watching porn nor has it taken over my life. I kind of used to jerk off most days and always to porn. And it wasn't really a big deal. I'd have occasional times when I thought that it's not very healthy that I only masturbate to porn and I'd stop masturbating for a few days or max a week. But when I found this site initially I was more interested by the 'powers' that purportedly come by stopping PM. So I thought I'd give it 'a bash'. But as I was writing my new to Fap journal it kind of dawned on me that what while what I was doing wasn't really affecting my life it wasn't really great either! And hence I've gotten more motivation to stop doing it.

So once again I don't want to demean anybody else's journey because I see it is a huge problem and cause of strife for many people and I empathise greatly with them and I also don't want to come across as that half assed guy. But currently I'm doing this mostly as a challenge to myself and I'm also interested in the benefits from no PM.

So my current aim is just take this journey one step at a time and be mindful of what triggers me to PM. If I do fail along the way I'd like to know why and then correct it and get back on the horse. So I apologise if I don't come across as taking this very seriously because I really have been moved by some of the stories I've read on the forum but it seems my journey is more of challenge than fighting huge demons.

 

Thanks for the feedback and encouragement! It's early days but I do feel that it will be really positive for me!

Here is my journal link
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/excited-to-start-this-journey-journal.102721/