new here* It hurts when I masturbate

I watched all types of porn (esp transwoman) since the age of 12 and had ED my whole sex life and I didn't know how.I had an identity crisis also but through Reddit I found out that 95% of straight males are attracted to transwomen because of "erotic illusion" I ruin 15 years of my lives suffering, every relationship I been with a girl I was embarrassed with ED and thinking I was going to be a straight bottom boy for transwomen. Because of ED I been with more transwomen than girls and I know Im straight but I thought that Nomore regular girls for me or even having a family in the future because of PIED. Now at the age 30 it hurts when I try to masturbate and didn't know what to do which led me to here but now hearing about this NoFap I get it now and have hope. I believe watching porn ruined a lot for me.