I was on a full year no PMO sex after I recently recognized how I have been misusing myself through these evil. I was happy after hitting the 31st day and was continually seeking to add some of the remaining months ahead since 5th feb and I really dont understand why I could have tripped soo easily into porn again. I have relapsed 5 times after the 31st day and recently I needed some energy coz of the depression I had from doing this and it I decided to get an energy drink so as to provide the energy to work as ambitiously I as I used to befall the fall. So I went for monster, with 979kcal/500ml and decided to take it. It was nice but the after effects the following day were disastrous, thought forms of committing suicide occupied my mind, I knew I had to cancel them. But I have some glitter of hope as from today I have started once more,and I will keep on updating my fellow fapstronauts about my progress. I really hate the cumshots,black booty ,facials ,bbw scenes from those videos I have watched and poisoned my mind. I dont know what God has considered about me but its that gut feeling of something wrong , thinking of hellfire, porn should be considered the 1st thing out of the human planet to avoid making us sex zombies with dead minds.
Just believe in yourself and start fresh with motivation to leave pmo. If you are determined enough then you can make it to day 90 and even further. No pain no gain brother.
Don't lose hope brother. If I know anything about God is he's forgiving. So try to change, don't give up. I relapsed after 28 hrs, getting back up. Keep trying brother.
You've achieved a 31day streak already so you're already on recovery path, just a few more conscious decisions and you'd be good to go for life.