Hi Fapstronauts

I feel timid about writing about myself on this forum, I want to bare my soul but I am ashamed, frustrated and embarrassed of myself. Addiction runs in my family, my family believed you could only be addicted to alcohol or drugs. Addicts were considered weak people in my family but alcohol or drugs were the blame. Being addicted to porn or masturbation was seen as a weakness in my character.

Porn has always excited me, and masturbation has always been the reward. It is that release that gets me through the parts of the day I find tough and overwhelming. As much as it is my copping mechanism, it also holds me back. I am tired of the same circle of events that lead me always back to the same place. I want to break the cycle.