First days

Hi there. I've just read I should introduce my self and write something about my motivations that lead me to this site. I felt I had a problem from about 10 years. But obviously my faping starts years before this. Probably at age 15 or something. I've try many time to quit with this but I never get beyond 2-3 days!

It felt so radically overcome by this "second myself", pushing me to "have great fun and watch porn" that about couple months ago I've started approaching state of crisis (depression?). I started doubt that I've ever can stop watching.

As I've mention, I couldn't stop even I see porn didn't get me any more satisfaction. I watched it and think to my self: "it's boring". Then 'click' and again think 'boring', then 'click' and again and again. Sometimes I've finished sometimes not, but when I didn't then for 99,9% I've come back in the same day and finished what I left previously.

I felt like shit. Some guys turn to more brutal type of porn but (fortunately) I stay on the same level. But as you can guess it does't solve my state of sexual behaviour.

I never fully realise I'm porn addicted. Eventually on the end of the day nobody is talking about this, yes? Of-course no, why anyone would want to talk about. It's "normal" and "everybody" doing this. It turns out it's not normal especially in times of high-speed internet connection, and not everyone is doing this! You can watch more women, position, situation and other crap in 20 minutes then your grandpa could watch in 20 years or more in his life.

Now, how did I found whole NoFap? I watch SHOCKING movie on youtube made by guy who just finished #nofap 90 days challenge. I was stunned! This was like revelation. Like discovering new planet or something. Then I've read and watch about this topic for next couple hours and during that time I switched from thinking "nooo... I can't make it" to "fuck! Let's try it. I actually can do it! Yes!".

Now I'm entering my day 3 of nofap 90 challenge and I felt several times great today. If you thinking about this and you didn't start yet then I'm telling you, it's GREAT! I'm trying to be busy all the time and watch this clip for many times during the day replygif[0]net(slah)i(slah)1310(trot)gif but most importantly, I write every day 100x in my notebook "I don't masturbate my self. I don't watch porn." and I need to tell this is hard but it's working (up to now at least . Also I'm aware now that about first 2 weeks are the worst and passing by this point will be my great mini-challenge.

So I'm finishing for now, it's late and I need to get sleep. Keep going and remember to be strong.

 

Thanks. With this "tool" I'm killing any doubts and temptations even slightest thoughts as they appear in my head. I try to not wait until I need to use emergency button .

 

Thank you. The best thing is that now (currently in day 3) I already fill much much better then normally. I've just go sleep about 1am and get up 6.05am and without coffee I just can't wrap my head around how can I fill like new born man with all this energy! Amazing.