Howdy, all. Like the title says, I am a porn addict and I would love to stop. It has been such a hindrance in my life for thr last decade, but has really gotten worse over the last few years. It's gotten so bad, that my gf of 4 years is devastated after finding out that I was subscribing to porn star snap chats and signing up for Webcam sites and Tumblr porn. It all started when I was about 19. Bought my first porn site subscription and it hooked me. Although I didn't feel it was an addiction at the time. Little did I know what I was doing to my brain. After a out 3 years of constant porn watching and multiple times masturbating a day, I lost the drive to have sex and even noticed that it didn't feel as it had once felt. I curbed that lack of sensation with dating women, sleeping with them a few times, then moving on to the next girl. Eventually, I found a wonderful woman, not through my sexcapades, and our relationship flourished. It was so new and exciting for me. However, the porn always loomed. Over this last year, I have neglected my gf so much. She would attempt to have sex with me, and I was always making an excuse why I couldn't or didn't want to. Only to end up masturbating to porn when she would go to bed. I started with porn, then webcams, and eventually even that wasn't enough to get the dopamine pumping. I needed more. So I began looking up blogs and swinger sites, because somehow my brain was turned on by the fact that these were "real" people and not some paid "actors" . I found it such a rush to think that at any moment, I would find someone I knew in real life, who was hiding this bad side. I would search frantically through all the local people, watching videos and perusing pictures along the way. That all came to a head (no pun intended), when my gf saw an incoming snap chat from a girl whose snap I had purchased to get "real" person nudes. Although she was probably sending them to 10s, if not 100s of people, I felt special in the thought that these pics were for me. It even got to the point where I would look for couples in the area to watch have sex, because it was live porn. I have ruined my relationship with a wonderful woman, I feel I have lost the drive to do stuff and progress in life. I have become comfortable in my life. However, the only thing that would make it that much greater would be to kick this terrible porn/sex addiction, and get my life back, as well as my relationship. I'm hoping this group is able to put me on the right track to success and freedom. Cheers!
CONGRATULATIONS BRUH! By joining, you've already completed the first step to ur PMO-free life! I'm on day 12 and giving up those few minutes of pleasure has given me a life like I've never experienced. Going thru forums and giving my fellow Fapstronauts encouragement is what keeps me strong! Ur gonna love it here and I can't wait to here about ur future successes!
Ok dude congrats on recognizing it , its the first decision , ive been 31 days with out PMO and it feels really great , you start to see the beutifull things of life the ones that really matters , dude porn has wreckd our perception of life , so badly , and so sad , ive gone thru hell , quitting PMO ,honestly dude thru hell , but at the end all it matters is why you started , determination information the MORE you know the enemy the stronger you are is a tuff figth , but ive done it so.you can to bro luck ! One problem at a time.
