she turns 32 next Tuesday.and goes back to Brazil on weds next week for holidays. I want her to like me what should I do?.From UK BTW.She is a support teacher in my class..Shes Brazillian from Sao Paulo and married.She looks young as fuk.looks like age 18. I don't why I just,you know -Love her. Ive never felt this way before. And I haven't fapped because (this is fucked up) I love her. When I'm about to fap I'm like"... But.. She..err...why the fuck is she in my head...let me fap". I'm not even about to fap over her I'm about to fap over a fetish and then out of nowhere she comes in my mind and I'm like " I love her... I cant fap.. Where the fuck did she come from anyway... Argh". Shes Brazillian by the way from Sao Paulo I talk to her and I feel nice and relaxed and I DONT KNOW WHY. When ever in class we talk all the time sometimes she starts a conversation.I don't even want to Fuc* her or anything I just want to be with her.IM MADLY IN LOVE WITH HER. IVE asked other people in class whether or not they think she's FIT (HOT/ATTRACTIVE) and they say no not really. So why am I in love with her. WHEN I first saw her I kinda hated her. And after 1 or 2 days I experienced this MAD love for her. Other people don't feel the same way Why me? Has NoFap done this?.And is it fucked and really messed up that I am not ever going to watch porn again, masturbate again because I love her. And I changed my mind set first I was like I'm gonna fu** a lotta girls, now I'm like "No never, I'll save ma seed (kinda for her coz I FUKIN LOVE HER) for a beautiful women. She speaks Portuguese and also Spanish. I learned a bit of Spanish and started swearing at her lol for jokes a week after she teached me like 2 spaniah words then she started calling me Cabron and laughing and sayin it again like 6 times ( I kinda had an idea she was swearing at me) maybe coz I was saying what's puto mean and pendejo then i reseached and found out the meaning for carbon and I was WTF why was she swearing at me???, learned a few swear words and started saying it to her in subliminal way e.g. What does this mean that mean Chinga ti madre, chingate , besa mi culo e.t.c AND I said chimgate yesterday when she was walking out the door to go home. HELP ME!! What should I do for her to like me? I know ill be continuing PMO again till I die or O if it's with her or someone who looks exactly Identical.But on an oath no more P and M. I want her.Shes 14 years older but FUK AGE its only a number. WHAT DO I DO?
Well you are at day 7, congratulations. Right now, I am starting again, but I remember when I was at day 7, I felt this crazy extreme sexual arousal to a women I never thought was attractive. Well two to be correct. It's just your mind playing tricks on you. Since you haven't masturbated to fantasy or imaginary 9 or 10 women(I am assuming), your mind is settling for the women in front of you. And it's manifesting into love and all that shit.
Sounds to me like you need to cut your losses,you're experiencing oneitis and haven't even slept with her? Lets just call it a crush and move on. You're probably experiencing what it feels like to love again after becoming accustomed to pixels?
Also Prob not the best things to say to each other. She called you a dumbass and you told her f her mother and to kiss your ass? Ehhhhh
This is a crush. You are young and your hormones are out of control. You need to turn that energy and focus to something else. A project? Exercise? First thought you need to take a breath and calm down. The key word that you mentioned was that she was married. Right there means there is nothing you can do or should do. I am not going to kid you, those are some tough feelings that you are having. You can get them into control by trying to focus on something else as mentioned above. Good luck. Stay strong and congrats on your streak!
Anytime I've been called a cabron the woman was usually tired of my shit. I don't see the bonding in fuck your mother honestly.
No problem with the age gap - I'm the resident cougar here but the marriage thing makes me tell you NO DO NOT GO THERE!! It's not fair on any of you Married people IMHO are a no-go zone Find an unmarried cougar - NOT a hint It will be better for everyone
I ended up relasping on day 14 BTW on Friday. But since then I haven't beat ma meat again. So I'm on day 2.
Well, it's good you made it to day 14 and are now on Day 2. On my 2nd try, I made it to Day 15, then relapsed. I'm now on Day 14, I think and getting close to Day 15 again, YES! Hang in there!
I actually dont find her attractive anymore. Shes like a 5 IMO now. Dont even know why I liked her in the first place. Mustve been my brain fucking with me whilst doing NoFap