Hey everyone. I'm about 4 months in now but feelin urges stronger than ever. I have been fantasizing all day and have been really irritated that I didn't have many moments where i wasn't rationalizing my way into being ok with pmo. The whole just once wont hurt thing, and a thousand other reasons that i have been making in my head. I'm still thinking about it, and I don't have a clear set goal, just been abstaining in general. I keep thinking that even if I do today I will have net gain over the past 4 months. I "juiced" today, so I didn't look at porn but definitely looked at some images that didn't help at all. Just feeling really drained right now. Now its late and it seems like there's nothing I want to distract myself with.
If you are 4 months in, that is more motivation than ever. You need to force yourself and find some way to not do it. 4 months under the belt is a huge accomplishment, I'd want to keep that going for as long as possible and not sink back into (which is easy to do) to the weekly or less than weekly habit.
I'm having trouble making the two week mark, congrats on your progress. You can keep it going, maybe a new hobby or something to take your mind off of it.
If I feel horny and can't stop fantasising, I give in! Rather than fight it, I allow myself to think about whatever it is. I make sure I don't touch myself and this way I find my mind tires of the thought very quickly! I gather that in life we are constantly faced with arousing stimuli or events that trigger stimulating thoughts. By avoiding thinking about it, temptation only gets greater. Using this approach has made me far, far stronger. I have feel no temptation towards P at all and by exercising this approach hope that I won't end up a social retard, who is ill equipped to deal with daily life. I understand this approach isn't going to be for everyone.
Man if abstained from PMO for 120 days thats great. Now don't ever think to fap! You may think that if you fap once nothing will happen as your 'addiction' is gone. But that is a pure lie. I thought the same. I was on day 61 and relapsed. All addiction was back again. Man don't fap. Do push-ups, take a cold shower, take a nap. You will feel a lot better...
Thank you all for your support. I feel a lot better today, and hope that your all still clean and going strong as well. I was fortunate enough to spend a semester in Rome over the past 4 months, and I hardly ever though about PMO. I seriously don't think I was ever actually tempted. I've only been back for a week, and boredom/temptation is hitting me hard. I didn't realize how strong this addiction was, and yesterday I was getting really pissed about it. I kept guilt tripping myself, only thinking about how long I have been enslaved by porn as the reason for my constant temptation. This just made me want to do it a whole lot, and I am surprised I made it through. These comments are helping me today though, so thank you. I really think this thing is working, abstaining has really helped me in general. I haven't been spending much time on nofap but with all this free time I think I am going to start. Looking forward to the experience.
