I am a porn addict for 15 years. I watch porn since 1999. I have not watched any porn in 2002 due to severe depression and in 2012-2013 due to a move and work in a different country. I hope I will get rid of my porn addiction with the help of nofap. I feel I am hopeless. I saw two psychiatrist for the condition. The first one was an old guy who treated me in 2002. He told me "just do not watch porn". The second one prescribed me Prozac and told me to find a hobby. The psychiatrists were useless. They were unsuccessful. When I am alone I watch obsessively porn, mainly fetish sites. For example I spent four hours today. Cumulatively, it totals up to a huge amount of time. As a result my work performance is terrible. Like a chain reaction my financial situation is near bankruptcy. If my mum had not helped, I would have been bankrupt by now. She also ran out of money. I am indecisive on many issues and postpone important decisions until to the day I recover form porn addiction. So I am still addicted and cannot decide on anything. For example, I am behind two months on my rent. I can not decide and move to a cheaper apartment. Worst of it my family and relatives think I work too hard when I am not at home. I am married with three kids. Maybe writing here will help me. I am in the USA for a trip for a week. I am alone for a week. Instead of going around in my free time, I do watch femdom sites. What a terrible waste. I pray everyday to get rid of the addiction. I hope I will get rid of it as soon as possible.
