A frustrated porn addict. Hey all! I just typed this out in my 'about' section. I got an automated message to introduce myself. So here I am! I was a studious debonair charming little boy till the age of 12. Then unfortunately, life took a dead twist. I discovered PMO. For 8 years since then I've masturbated to porn and still do. My addiction has only escalated over time. I began losing self respect, self esteem, self confidence and all the other things that define my personality. The toughest part of it all is to survive with a porn addiction in an orthodox Muslim family. I'd rather prefer to be an alcohol addict and receive good counsel than be a porn addict. In my community, it is quite a taboo about which you can't frankly speak straight up. I would sincerely repent and cry out to God for forgiveness but I keep relapsing and my conscience fail to forgive myself. Constantly under the apprehension of getting caught, I did get caught thrice. My parents were saddened and they did try to advice and counsel me but nothing would calm down my raging hormones. I found my social anxiety getting worse. I started to stutter and stammer even in normal conversations, making an idiot out of myself. I started losing concentration and constant depression made me procrastinate. My grades at college started to drop. Devastated by guilt and remorse, I always end up trying to drown my frustrations in the same sea I'm already in- masturbating to porn. The mere presence of women around me makes me feel anxious and uncomfortable. I've never been able to strike up a healthy conversation with any girl. So yeah my dear brothers, that's just the gist of my life. I've got myself into more serious trouble too, but that's enough for now. PMO has given me all the worse things one would ever get. I'm sincerely looking forward for your constant support, if I am ever to revive. Peace!
Good for you! Just remember if you make a mistake just keep going and don't get discouraged. I have found whenever I feel like watching porn I try to occupy my mind with other stuff or look through and comment on NoFap. Seeing other people's struggles help me to want to stop. Also, the first step I took was to delete all my porn collection. Keep up the good work and don't quit.
