Manual of the warrior of light

Week 1
Day 1

Hey nofap community,

Yes, I'm back. After one month of pain, suffering and no motivation, I decided to join this forum again and destroy pmo with others together.

I've been away because I thought I could take the challenge all by myself and at the beginning it worked. But my addiction got much worse and the only change I could feel is that my inside got colder and harder. I lied to myself and I neglected the religion I loved so much. This addiction is taking a huge space inside my heart and I'm walking around with a big "?" in my head, questioning my existence and my mission in life. What do I want to achieve? Why do I actually want to quit pmo? It's much easier the way it is!

These were my thoughts...how silly of me

I experienced a huge negative difference in my life.

Never again. Never again I want to feel this way. And I'm recommending everyone who is reading this to pmo EVER again if the feeling is the same as mine after I do it. It's just disgusting looking in your parents and friends eyes who are so proud of you and with the very same eyes you're looking at these horrible things. This is not right, this can't be right.


Alhamdulillah I'm happy that I realized it once again and so I'm taking the challenge again. My first goal is one month and after that I'll be aiming for the next goal directly.

I'll be much more active on this page as I used to be and I will also help others to quit this addiction.

"Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough!"

 

Week 1
Day 2

Absolutely no urges...I've been so fresh and full of energy today! I read some articles about women rights and about women who have been abused brutally in the P industry. I was shocked...I never imagined these horrible things and still the P industry is making billions of dollars! I just can't agree this with my morality. I'm really disgusted by this kind of videos and I'm really amazed to see a change in 2 days while in my previous try, I was feeling the first big change in 1 week. But there's still a long way to go but it's possible!

 

Week 1
Day 3

Again Alhamdulillah not a Single urge. I stayed busy most of the time and I am trying my best to be as productive as possible. I also go to sleep early and get up early so that I have no useless free time where I get those silly temptations again! Keeping it up with god's help inshallah

 

Week 1
Day 4

Today there were again no urges Alhamdulillah because I was pretty busy again. But I can feel that I have much much more "energy" inside of me which can also result in aggression...Alhamdulillah I didn't scream with anyone but stlll. I am balancing it with prayer but I have to find something where all the energy can go

 

Week 1
Day 5

A good day again Alhamdulillah. No urges, could motivate myself and think about life and stuff... Looking forward for week 2 inshallah!

 

Week 1
Day 6

Again a pretty stressfull and busy day but inshallah keeping it up I don't know why but I was so lazy today when I came home...I will have to change this tomorrow and become disciplined again!

 

Week 1
Day 7

One week already, thank you God for me making it so far. Without your help it would've never been possible for me to make it, ya Allah. You made me strong, please increase me and my brothers and sisters in strength, for indeed, strength comes from nothing but you. You are the eternal source of strength and we are the weak ones.

 

Week 2
Day 8

Over one week already Alhamdulillah! But there's still a way to go...but with gods help nothing is impossible.

 

Week 2
Day 9

Heading towards the 10 days! The time passed pretty slow...Alhamdulillah I'm happy that I made it so far and inshallah God will make me successful on my journey

 

Week 2
Day 10

Today was a good day Alhamdulillah. I can feel a huge difference in my behavior and thinking. I am not wasting my time anymore Alhamdulillah and I am much more confident and dedicated.
Allah helped me to come this far and he will help me to beat this demon once and for all!

 

Week 2
Day 11

DEDICATION - HARD WORK

Putting all my effort in it to get off this shit and man up!!! I will make this and I will crush all of my goals! I'm so pumped up to work, train or study right now and there "flow moments" sometimes last for the whole day! Nofap had a much bigger impact on my life this time than earlier. Inshallah Allah will increase the huge benefit in this much more!

 

Week 2
Day 12

Today was a bit harder...I had some urges but Alhamdulillah I was far away from becoming weak. I can feel some changes in my brain and my character and there are still tons of energy inside of me which I feel like releasing somehow...I go to training Alhamdulillah but still...

 

Week 2
Day 13

@HalcyonCruiser thanks man! Yes i WILL definetely destroy this addiction!
I had some urges again...still having one so I thought to look what's going on here instead of searching for weird stuff again

The urges get a bit stronger and I sometimes feel like giving up. I know this sounds miserable but I'm fighting through it. I am seriously addicted since one year and I don't want it to be longer. I promised it to myself that I'll never relapse again and reminding that promise is pushing me through this pain! This pain is NOTHING. I am the man! I will become the greatest of myself and this will be a huge step on my way! I don't want to die one day with my addiction above me and me laying on the ground. I want to end this once and for all!

 

Week 1
Day 2

Wasn't active because I had much work but the bad news are: I relapsed. After 2 weeks of staying pmo free :/ I fought for an hour and a half in my bed against the urge in order to sleep but then I gave up. But this time I'll make it definitely

 

Week 1
Day 3

Had an urge before but it was somehow strange, I could easily fight against it. I almost feel like pmo became a habit and is rooted in my heart and I sometimes want to do it even if I don't have an urge. I guess that's the result of my addiction