my 90 day hard mode reboot

Welcome to Nofap! This is easily the best place to be with a PMO addiction, as your shame is reduced because it's a community of people all working towards the same goal.
For me to give you a feeling of quitting would be irrelevant because I haven't been able to make it halfway to 90 days in about a years attempt now. What I can tell you however, is that quit PMO now on your first attempt while you can. Don't ever tell yourself, "I'll start this journey tomorrow" or "Quitting once is ok" because believe it or not you'll soon be in 2017 stuck with the same situation. Suffer through these 90 days, and you'll live the rest of your life as a champion.

 

Hey man, thanks for sharing your story. I'd be happy to share some advice except, well, I don't have any. I turned 30 in December and I was sort of expecting a magical transformation that never came. I realized that a change of my predicament won't come by itself. A week ago I talked to a friend of mine who told me he stopped watching porn. It struck me then how desperate I was. I NEVER told anyone (not even him - the guy who shared his story with me) that I am addicted to PMO.. But him coming out - it helped me shake off the addiction and I've stayed clean for a week (my record is around 30 days).

My point is - talk to the guys, read through the diaries - YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this. We are all next-door neighbours and friends without even realizing that.

Also, there are some really good threads on this forum which are simply must-reads. Explore, find your motivation and fight. You got this!!

 

You'll get thoughts of maybe tapping cos pmo is not your problem. But you need to win this, if you can't not wank, what kind of man are you? This is winning your confidence and controlling your actions.... Don't relapse, not worth it. Keep going, it can oinlky help.

I too have been looking at transwoman stuff and sometimes think I should. But nah, that's porn fucking with us. Stay strong brother. Its tough, very tough, but if people cxan go cold turkey off hard drugs, tapping and dopamine is nothing compared to their withdrawal.

Watch the YouTube documentary about crackheads.... When you see them relapse, you realise they get what they deserve cos after a day or two they refuse to fight it (must be hard, we find nofap hard). But when you watch you think wtf its three days hold out but the mind plays big tricks. Keep at 90 days I am too

 

And it should nt be "first reboot attempt" its worded to fail.... Rebooting... It ain't no attempt, there is no room for failure

 

Hey Paddy - you said you were Irish. I'm Polish, you know. We both come from strong, fighting (& a bit crazy) nations. One thing we definitely have in common - except for our affinity for beer - is that we can't be broken. This fight is in our blood, man!

 

Paddy, brother. I have to admit that when I read your posts I read it with an Irish accent and it makes me feel better about life.

Anyway... You are in exactly the right place. The ups & downs are common. You're going to think things and feel things you've never experienced before, and you'll be at extremes on both sides of the emotional spectrum. The important thing for us is to remain committed to getting through that initial 90 days. Make it a priority, and don't fap nomatter what. From your story it sounds like you've got a great approach so far.

Take it one day at a time brother. Sometimes, if need be, take it one hour or one moment at a time. Start a journal or join a group and try to post on here every day; post when you feel like superman, and post when you need to rat yourself out about watching bikini beach volleyball on tv (or whatever the case may be). Get yourself an accountability partner than you can contact in case of emergency urges, and learn about this addiction as much as you can. Nofap provides a lot of great tools to learning about this and overcome it. Just dive in and make a commitment for your future and for your family.

If nothing else, approach it like an experiment. I've never gone 90 days without jerking off of looking at porn, so I'm curious to see what changes about my life after that long. And if I ever want to go back, porn will always be there. But I'll tell you this brother, I have never seen anybody come back after a relapse or reset and talk about how great it was to watch porn again. And like any addiction, its progressive, which means it will demand and take more and more from us to get the fix, which probably explains why you started getting into some off-the-wall porn. Be good to yourself and take the time to heal, we are all sick and by staying away from the PMO we have a chance at getting better. There might be other problems for us too, but we can definitely give up porn and improve that part of ourselves, if nothing else.

Stay open-minded, honest, and willing and you'll literally see miracles happen. Help others with less time, we keep this gift by giving it away. And one day at a time, by the Grace of God, we can and we will overcome this addiction. I try to ask Him for help every day, and thank him after each victorious day. So far, its worked for the past 51 days, and I don't ever want to go back to the way I used to be.

Good luck and God bless you in your journey, feel free to PM me or check out some of my journals and keep in touch

 

If you don't know or if you haven't acknowledged that you're an addict too, I can understand the lack of compassion. But addiction brings down stronger men than you, my friend. Addiction is an illness, and it has absolutely nothing to do with "getting what they deserve"...

Here's the reality: we all deserve a gruesome, painful, bloody and terrible death. But Jesus Christ went through exactly that so that we wouldn't have to. If life were fair we'd be dead or in jail. But life ain't fair, and sometimes its for the best that we don't actually get what we deserve

 

Def illness, I prob wouldn't make it ur right. But everyone gets what they deserve, acknowledge it. Don't preach. If I choose to take crack then I know what I'm getting me into, if I refuse help I deserve it. Each to their own

 

Paddy you have whatsapp?

 

Just inbox me ur number bruh. I'm ion 90 days challenge and also at 13 days. Would help us bith