Hi all, I will try to keep this log updated, since I'm on day 15 no pmo, and now the journey becomes very rough. Yesterday (day 14): I had already some urges I could fight with meditation and a cold shower, but today, nobody in the house, p stuff and fantasies pop up in my head many times. The urges are now becoming unbearable... I just took a cold shower and pressed the "panic button" on the forum. Feeling better now. Hope I stay strong. I'm only half way my first 30 days goal...pfff another 15 days and then moving on to 60/90 days. Now I'm beginning to understand how hard it is for drug users to get rid of their addiction. Something strange I noticed; maybe due to 15 days nofap, but going for a pee, my penis is so sensitive that I can barely shake the drops off (sorry for my english), and I feel like I will ejaculate. I just don't touch anything, but it feels like you'll cum without doing anything... anyone had similar experience?
Safranski -- hang in there. It will pass, believe me. Just take it one day at a time. My advice, if you don't mind: don't just sit there. Be busy. Especially with things you really enjoy. Get out of the house if you can, maybe with friends. Go for a walk, or a bike ride, or go to a movie, or to a restaurant, a museum, whatever. But be busy about something you enjoy, that's full of beauty and meaning.
Thank you @Septimus for the advice and the support. Today was unfortunately very rainy, but I spend the time on one of my hobbies and that helped me, at least for today. I'm afraid that I will not sleep well as I suffer from imsomnia the last days, also due to porn stuff that flickers up in my mind...
Day 17: game over! Oops... did some searching for psubs, made me in an arousel state. Shortly after I went to some of my favourite P websites. Watched for maybe 10 minutes, but could switch off computer. Did some work at home. And finally laying 4 hours later in bed, urges hit me hard, couldn't avoid M. RELAPSED. Damned! Need to reset my counter Feel disappointed but things could have been worse. Lesson learned: avoid psubs at all means!
I really relate to your struggle. In fact, I'm up right now in the middle of the night reading and posting here because the fantasies and the sexual feelings are so strong that I feel super close to relapsing. It actually helps to hear someone else talk about similar feelings, to know that I'm not alone in this struggle. So thank you for posting with your honesty.
Hello @HopeSong , sure, you're not alone in this battle. Before I discovered NoFap, I thought I was the only person on earth with such a history of porn use and related problems. For me, and I think many others here, I'm very ashamed to talk about my habits. But this website gives me so much support and advice, that I still believe I can win this. Very difficult to stop these habits, this I now understand, but we can do it. Good luck to you.
