Relapsed. This time the reason was not porn (directly). It was my bad daily schedule. I would sleep late browsing the internet on random things and this was going on since day 1. But today it eventually landed on porn. I knew it from the very first day that someday I am going to fail because of my silly habit of sleeping late and waking up late. So tomorrow is my day 1 again. I will change my habit. Any suggestions are welcome..
My tip will be to look on the bigger picture. Do you want to invest in your life and future? Than know that pmo will keep you away from it. I too went late to bed and stood up late and many times I have relapsed because of that. Use the internet only for the good stuff like information and afcource for entertainment but a healthy entertainment. You must be strict to yourself. No searching for p and if you notice that somethings triggers you to search something close down your phone or pc. It is not always a easy battle, it can be rough! But you can overcome this. Learn how to relax without pmo! Pmo is not worth it!
I agree with @Dev-abc, but perhaps in a different tenor. Ultimately the message is empowering yourself to control your actions and no longer self-deceive. Hopefully at least one of the two will help you in your journey! I'll repost what I wrote in this thread: "...Recognize that you in fact DO want to PMO, but also that over time to this point you have allowed yourself to build these destructive habits by continuously giving in to these urges, which only makes them stronger. Recognizing that this is your mind and not some external entity controlling you, you can take responsibility (response-ability: the ability to respond) for your actions and consciously decide that you won't allow yourself to continue this destructive behavior. Just as it was built over time, so too will the recovery."
You make a good point. I guess that is why people who have strict accountability partners do better. Knowing a wife might not forgive another relapse , for example, is certainly motivating.
