Help..

I just had sex with my girlfriend (first time for both of us).
I maintained an erection throughout hugging and kissing, and perhaps oral for her. (I'm wasn't comfortable being given oral sex, so I refrained, partly because my erection was gone). When it came to penetration, my erection was gone. We waited for half an hour. We tried again, we managed to do some penetration, but needless to say, I barely felt anything. Maybe it was the condom, or me being circumcised, etc. We then stopped, and called it a day. She was disappointed. I was severely depressed until now, after she left, I was anxious to the extent that I started vomiting. I felt that I've let her down terribly badly.

I went to the doctor on the following day, she said it's very common and it's mainly because of me being anxious. Now, about myself, I used to masturbate prone since the age of 16, but 7 months ago I managed to masturbate supine. I just quit masturbation for a day and I changed it (I'm 19 now). I felt proud, and accomplished. I don't watch porn everyday, more like once a week or something. I don't need it, I rely more on my imagination. Usually I imagine myself with my girlfriend, and it feels good.

So, after coming across the website, I thought maybe my imagination works like porn or something. Today is day 1 for me to abstain from masturbation. I don't know how much will this take, but I'm incredibly frustrated at myself, and I'm really depressed. I don't know what to do, except to try literally everything I can. I'm really attracted to my girlfriend, and I just want us to be happy.

Does anyone have any sort of advice or a similar experience?

 

Thanks a lot for sharing this. It's reassuring to see someone in the same boat who've made it!