Day 1 I am ready for something New: My story-Neiko

Sup Fapstronauts

Have no idea if this post is even going to get seen by anyone but I thought I'd give it a try, they say confession is a cleansing of the soul right? So first of all I am starting this NoFap challenge for so many reasons the main one "I'm tired of feeling like a little bitch" excuse my language I don't like using profanity but it feels befitting to my situation. about two years ago I got through Six months with no fapping hard mode(not because of this challenge but for spiritual reasons). They were absolutely some of the best months of my life, I felt so strong internally but unfortunately I fell back in to the PMO cycle. I'm not a porn addict however I was at a time (isn't everyone in their early teen years?) I thought id share a little bit of my story before going on with the rest of this post. I grew up in a very religious home and was very sheltered from the entire world and lived in this "Truman show"- Esque world. I was bullied super badly in middle school and have yet to gain true confidence since, I had an abnormally high pitched voice and was extremely overweight so one can only imagine the taunts that came along with that. I believe that's what led me to PMO it was an escape for me and it made me feel good, however I am now completely sick of it and I want to be strong and feel truly confident, I want to feel satisfied spiritually and I want to feel like an alpha male as opposed to a beta. The first step to getting back on track is admitting you've messed up right? I have messed up and I'm ready to live PMO free again, I'm ready to feel like a man, I've felt like a little boy for so long and Im ready to just conquer life and I think the first step to that, no wait I KNOW the first step to that is to cut fapping out of my life again. This time I want to be done with fapping for good I know not everyone has this goal and I don't expect everyone too but I am ready to do this now, I'm ready to experience all life has to offer, I have lived in this shell and I'm ready to breakout fully. As I write this post I hope I am able to connect with other fapstronauts who are on this journey to help me along the way, and to possibly find others that I can help with my journey. I am looking forward to the road ahead and I know that I am on the right path starting now. Any advice or comments anyone has would be appreciated. Stay Strong Bros -Neiko

 

Thanks Man I appreciate dude im suffering from the worst blue balls right now, Is this your fist time doing this challenge?

 

I gave in a messed up today, not to sure how I feel right now but I knew coming on this journey that I was going to at least have one slip up, I still feel the same way I did when I wrote this post Im ready to take my life back. I figured instead of writing an entire new post about this mishap id just post it here. Dusting myself off an trying again

Neiko