Recently my anxiety went out of control causing me distressed doubts... Disrupt my works etc... i thought myself maybe i have OCD however, my GAD is share familiar traits... I Starting to notice everything that contact with sexual parts made my anxiety brain would instantly count it as a relapse even though it's not pmo! Example if a girl touching her own boob or butt, stare at people private parts, which is natural for us, animals are naked, sort of sexual sound resemble to porn etc... even video games and movies got me triggered doubts... Example shooting enemy in the nut and butt for fun, do all kind of entertained stuffs, like press crotch on enemy corpse face look like we sit on their face, it funny when we play as team etc... and Playing gta go to strip club etc... An anime where the character pulled weapon between gap her chest which apart of her dress that you can still saw her rear boob or things resemble to porn like a guy pulled out, his weapon from his demon mouth if reverse the video look like it sucking a dick lol Then Normalize stuffs... MY BRAIN INSTANTLY COUNT AS RELAPSE EVEN IT DIDN'T LEAD TO PMO!!! What make things worst is, i asked people on reddit to judge certain things they will said, it a relapse or was it sexual intents? Then this make my anxiety worsening ever since... No matter how many time i told myself, if it doesn't lead to pmo then stop fucking doubt!!? My brain don't listen, it even effect my concentration while working everytime i have a doubt about relapse, i couldn't think clearly or give my best perform... Once i get the answer, i will be back on track. I can't deal with this anymore, i need solid and true answer please... How do i stop the doubt even though it's not pmo or lead to relapse? And it just resemble of it, it not entirely porn at all...
I think I see the issue. Whenever you're having doubt about relapse, just assume you have relapsed and accept it, in order to stop the downward spiral of doubt.
