[14-CHALLENGE] THE FOURTEEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 3/14

 

6/14 = 3/7 = 42.86%

 

7/14 = 1/2 = 50%

 

7/14

 

8/14 = 4/7 = 57.14%

 

9/14 = 64.29%

 

10/14 = 5/7 = 71.43%

 

Slipped up at 8 days.

Back to 0/14

 

7/14

 

11/14 = 78.57%

 

12/14 = 6/7 = 85.71%

 

13/14 = 92.86%

 

14/14 = 1/1 = 100%

 

14 days no porn I can do.

1/14

 

0/14

 

1/14

 

2/14

 

14 days left to go.

 

13 days left to go.

Today, I didn't really do anything. Got an asthma attack due to smoke inhaled passively last night. Went home and felt very exhausted. I mostly did housework. Cleaning the dishes, washed clothes, and hung them. I did everything productive except studying. Realising this, I feel guilty for wasting my time. However, I can't keep on blaming myself because I know it'll be toxic. I'll just accept that it's okay to take a rest. Besides, if I were to continue finishing today's goal, it'd take me hours to finish it and my health will be at stake.

From the NoFap side, I just had some minor fantasies when I wanted to go to sleep. I just said no and continued on.

Overall, 8/10 for the haunting guilt. I just need to accept that I did win because I helped unpacked the things, washed the dishes, and helped with the laundry. Not some big wins, but it's still a win for discipline.

Second week is coming to an end and I need to stay alert. All I can say for now is see you all tomorrow!

 

12 days left to go.

Holy cow. TODAY WAS DIFFICULT. Extreme urges kept on recurring. First one came right after waking up. Like, bro, CHILL OUT. I'M BARELY CONSCIOUS. I think my phone triggered the urges because I found a workaround to bypass my blocker. Same as the past, I just ran (I slept actually). Woke up the second time and it was routine. Nothing special happened until I took a break from 1 hour of studying. The same urge came again although I just touched my phone. This. THIS. WAS A REALLY CLOSE CALL. My brain literally just bypassed the blocker and went to chrome. BEFORE I SURFED THE HUB, I IMMEDIATELY SHUT DOWN MY PHONE AND THREW IT AWAY. Emptied my bladder, grabbed my book, and moved far from my room. I read and read and read. After my eyes were exhausted, I decided to take a nap. OH MY. THE FANTASIES WERE SO INTENSE AND KEPT ON COMING. I tried said no to all of them until an area below my brows—probably the prefrontal cortex—feels fried from that intense battle. Shortly after that, I ate lunch and tried to fall asleep again to just survive for the day. The same fantasies came again and that was part 2 of the intense battle. THANK GOD I WON ALL OF THOSE BATTLES. Man, the second week is straight up hell. I need to muster up more energy after this to power it through again.

In conclusion, despite of the unpleasant experience, I gave today a 10/10. A win streak for your brother here. *sigh, what a relief. Well, I'll see you all tomorrow, mates!