I am like more than-40 days with no orgasm... But I kept checking porn once in a while.. Now I installed snapchat... I don't wanna even wanna check porn is boring!!! These women really frustrate me real bad!!! I really feel an urge to fuck a woman real bad. Like I want that feeling of a woman body. I am getting insane, full errections all day, and I feel like I wanna approach women with the intent to breed them.. and not the object mentality. Simply put them into submission.. I feel like an animal!!!! God damn it. I hate my life!!
31. I am not okay at all. 1. I am ultra mega horny 2. I am jobless 3. I am pissed about everything on in my life. 4. Got family issues I haven't had orgasms in almost 2 months, which kinda opened my eyes to the real world. I haven't gotten that high reward, but I really feel I need a real woman... its an animalic primitive feeling, I feel like a neanderthal I swear to god. I am not attacking women on street if you are worried. But being close to them... especially the hot ones... activates my balls.
I worked as a full stack developer before the family issues happened and f.ked my life past 2 years. I can be a junior in Angular .Net Core, I know signalR. Like I am not very expericed, but if I was working 1 year straight I can for sure be a the middle. If you are serious I can back up this with git repos and my leetcode profile. Porn and this addiction is because I never got a real chance to have a career. I know a job would boost my confidence and I would leave this damn house, go in a city, go to gym, volunteer for a humanitarian cause, and get a gf which I would never cheat on her with porn. Jobless =no life, never had connections in corporations.. Anyway I can work as tester.. but I have no experience, it shouldn't be a big deal to work as a qa
They dont work anymore... I get a shower.. after 20 min my balls are boiling hot, I get stupid errections and dirty thoughts. Its like I am sort of stable pig that is born to breed. I need to reintroduce praying and meditation, I don't know what else to do.. I got control over orgasms, I don't go like an addict and orgasm non.stop. but my mind is wrecked, and my body is a breeding machine.
