[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

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Day 20

 

Day 19/90

 

35/90 days done. I lack energy and feel sick again. The weekend was pretty good, but exhausting. I went out partying with friends and I barely slept… I will make sleep and rest a priority, this affects my life too much.

Also something funny and embarrassing happened yesterday that I want to share with you:
I was in public transport late at night (no one was there) and wanted to talk with a girl via phone later. I was pretty dead and wanted some sexual motivation, so I listened to sexual explicit music to increase my sexual energy. After a couple of minutes, without any warning signs, I came in my pants. It sounds crazy writing down and reading that and I can barely believe that it actually happened haha It came completely as a surprise, I did not touch my penis and it was just somewhat semi-hard. That never happened to me, not even as a teenager. I do not see it as a relapse and I won’t reset my counter, because it was not intentional. In the future I will use this kind of strategy for libido-boosting a lot more carefully and for now, not at all.

 

Day 11

 

Day 36

 

Day 0. Starting over.

 

Day 5/90.

 

thank u bro i really appreciate your words

 

Day 4

 

Day 33

 

Day 24/90

 

Day 1

 

Day 20/90

 

Day 21

 

DAY 1

 

64 days. I heard the "Two Rules" somewhere: 1. Don't look at provocative images and 2. Don't touch yourself. I do well in the straight forward "Don't masturbate" category, but can slip into brief viewings of stuff and touching myself. All very dangerous. I have started a second timer on my phone that just says "Two Rules." This will be more of a hard stop, but it's time.

 

Day 12

 

36/90 days done. Today I slept for around 10 hours… My body needs rest, I lack energy. At the same time, I am worried that I am slipping into depression or a depressive episode. Yesterday for the first time ever I think, I had to force myself to pursue a hobby of mine. Normally it helps me to relax and I am always looking forward to it. Maybe I’m burnt out… I lack drive, I lack vision.. Any ideas? Should I force myself forward or take it slow and listen to my body?