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Failed again late at night.
I was having trouble solving a problem. I resisted for some time but gave in eventually.
Things is when I calmed down from the stress I solved the thing I was stuck on in 5 mins.
This is actually a legit problem outside of PMO.
If I can't control my stress levels I will not do well in the interview.
I have to control my thoughts better.
I should give more credit to myself and calm down. I know I can solve problems I just need some peace and some time.

 

Rise again brother! You did it before, you can do it again!

 

Day 177. Going good, focusing on work around the house. Keeping up my new program of working out everyday.
Started some gym clases to add more diversity.

Stay strong everyone, one day at a time!

 

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Day 37.

 

Day 0

 

Stay strong brothers!

 

Day 1:
@DRAGON_ @Against_the_demon_in_myself Let's do this together brothers!
100 pushups completed..
Tommorow will be Back + Arms
Another Hanma here...

 

Day zero

 

Day 31

 

Day 177. Still fighting. It's getting harder though. Too much time on my hands and being alone doesn't help.
I'm testing out a few new activities like swimming / running and gym, I need to put them in a schedule so I don't have to think too much about what to do.
The rest is work, and that is going great at the moment.

 

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Day 2:
Another Humble Beast

 

Day 245 - 8 months + 2 days

So, a milestone I've never ever dreamt of being able to achieve! After 7 years of trying and failing to quit porn and never gotten further than 3-4 months (that weren't even "clean": during those times I sometimes still looked at a hot picture of a bikini model on Insta). Now +8 months completely clean without even a mini peek or anything close to chasing. Situation is as stable as I mentioned in my previous post. Plus I realized today that I don't have the urge to MO anymore as a relief when I'm stressed from / busy with work. I MO much less than I did a few months ago. I feel more at peace, relaxed and am super productive at work and my free time is almost as efficient as I'd want it to be: either working out, go out dancing, following language course, studying for the course, reading a book or when I'm tired / bored I go for a walk.

I can truely and honestly say I feel like a total different person now than I've felt the last 20/25 years: less anxiety, less stress, more focus, more control, better sleep, more content with how I am and what I do, more confident, etc.

But to be honest, I still believe I am not completely there yet and not sure if this phase will last. But 8 months is already a long enough period for my brain to rewire, although the little porn devil inside me will never die, at least I've now made it much smaller and less present in my life.

Good luck everyone!

 

Happy for you brother, you're an inspiration to us all.
You have so many good things happening in your life right now.

Given you're so busy and urges have reduced in intensity it's understandable your are not as active as in your first months.
I do read everything you post though. Maybe you will have some time in the future to look back and post a few of the things that helped you.
I know this forum is full of advise, but every person's journey is different and your input would be greatly appreciated.

 

Day 178 for me. I need to keep active on the forum as my days are bit messed up. Doing great when I'm at work, focused and productive.
Anxiety steps in as soon as I get home, don't know what to do, whatever I'd do is not good enough or I'd better do something else.

 

Day 32

 

Day 10

Once again, I'm really sorry for going MIA once again. I've had my hands full these days.

I'm improving a lot more in crossfit than before. Plus, I'm training my ass off as hard as I can in taekwon-do, Brazilian jiu-jitsu, and MMA. I'm staying vigilant and attentive on when will they hold an event for MMA so I can be ready to compete soon.

 

Checking in.
I failed the interview. I was simply not at the level required to succeed.
This saddened me of course but it was also a valuable lesson.
In order to get to top level companies at mid to senior level I have to get much better at solving coding challenges under pressure.
Paraphrasing the Khabib video, I went into the big arena and I was not ready. I choked and I lost.
But I will not surrender. This defeat will increase my determination. I will put in the required work, I will reach the required level.

And same with PMO. I don't care that I have failed a 1000 times. I will keep going until I heal.

@DRAGON_ @Baki Hanma Let's do this together brothers!

 

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