So, we’ll say this is the 4th or 5th time I’ve tried to quit, like seriously try. The furthest I’ve gotten is roughly 30 days. But this time feels different. Don’t really expect anyone to follow this. More of just a journal for my thoughts and experiences. But if you do follow, I will try my absolute best to not let you down! 6/29/23 - Day 1
this 100% accurate when you are beginning a new streak you are telling yourself it’s alright this streak that is going to be the las.t. You want it to be the last ? Make it happen I see too many nofap people sayin the same thing and when they relapse they find excuses good luck my friend, really hope it’s your final one
only time will tell, I guess. I do feel like I’m in a good place right now. Something feels different.
Day 2: Just taking it one day at a time. A couple comments made me sit back and really think, what makes this time different? Why do I feel more confident about being able to beat this? For starters, I’m ready to get back to my old life. I remember when I was able to get hard for sex or even just a text from my gf (ex) would have me riled up for hours. I remember being able to have sex without a second thought and being confident in my “abilities”. There was never a question of “will I be able to get it up?” Or “man, I hope I don’t embarrass myself here”. I just moved to a new city where nobody knows me and I’m ready to start over. Also, I don’t feel like I’m totally a lost cause. I still get morning wood most days. I’ll still, from time to time, get semi erect just laying in bed. But never to the capacity I know I’m able to. So I know it’s possible and that all the work won’t be for nothing. Anyways, let’s take it one day at a time and make this the last time
Let's do this. This is my final final full final streak that's gonna stay. It's gonna be unbreakable.
Day 5 today. Been a busy weekend with work. Nothing crazy to report. The urges are definitely there but nothing I can’t handle right now. Just trying to keep a good head space
Day 6 today. Had a pretty vivid dream last night that tested me a little bit lol. But we’re good. Tomorrow is my first off day since I started this so that’ll be the test. Plan on not being home at all. side note: this is probably the longest streak I’ve had in 8-10 months (as pitiful as that sounds) so something positive to celebrate
Day 7 today. One week. The “first milestone”. Also my first day off of work since I started. Trying my best to stay busy. Everything is going smooth so far. Nothing new to report. We got this!
You’re doing great! Try to keep in mind that the sexual energy is building up in us every day. Eventually it will overwhelm our defenses, it will burst the dam. Unless we give it a healthy outlet.
Yes mate, just try and beat your previous streak. Stay in the fight, that's all you can ask of yourself
I'm on Day 2. In the last 6 months I've used Porn maybe 15-20x times. That's already a huge improvement from where I came from. This time I'm trying to kick it out of my life for good. But I think what is most important here self talk during a critical moment. (Here are a few tips I've learned off of a guy on Youtube) For example: You are craving for PMO and it's 9pm. Now you need self talk to help you guide you through that craving. For example: It's getting late, Porn may feel really good now but it will make you feel so much worse afterwards. Or I also write scripts from when I come home from the gym or work. "okay I know you are tired. Instead of a PMO session, let's take a shower, make some dinner and then listen to a podcast and go to sleep" Whenever I do this, I never relapse. Because I have a prewritten script guiding me trough those urges.
Day 10. Still killing it. One thing I’ve noticed is how much porn has consumed my life. I feel like there’s been this huge void for the past 10 days. Seems like I spend all day thinking about it. I don’t feel like my mentality about quitting for good has changed or anything, but it’s really sickening how often the thought of porn or sexual thoughts enter my head. I’m hoping that gets better as the time goes but guess we’ll see
Day 11. Nothing crazy. Just trying to stay busy. Taking everything one day at a time. Excited but know the worst is yet to come
