I’m scared

I am very confident it is possible, but indeed, this is a long process with small steps. Although it may seem daunting, it's also important to celebrate and reflect on the small victories you make along the way. You will succeed, especially if you can pick up yourself after setbacks - which I'm sure you can or will be able to!

What helped for me is to reflect on my current life and draft a set of goals I'd like to achieve, such as no PM or living healthier. Then, you can start dividing these into smaller goals recursively until you end up with a set of tractable goals. Then, you can start making these concrete and real: How are you going to achieve these? What changes are required to work on them? How will you ensure you stay committed to them?

Obviously, we are here to support you in every part of the way. Best of luck!

 

You say you are scared? You (and we all) should be. This is serious stuff. On par with gambling addiction or heroin.
With that said, this mess is totally possible to get out of.


During your reboot, it is totally okay and normal to feel bad. Sometimes very bad. You are not alone.
Expect that occationally you will take a step forward and two steps back.

Trust the process, more than outcome.
Celebrate small goals, rather than focus on the "end goal".

 

If it sounds daunting, it is especially important to break things down into smaller pieces. What are your main goals? What would you like to achieve, let's say, in the next half year?

 

I just love this answer!!!!! Nailed it! What this guy said!!

baby steps to your recovery @Lostsoul222 - you can do this!

 

Very nice, those are three main goals. Let's pick one, being free. How do you think you may achieve this? What steps or subgoals can you set?

 

Have you looked into state run healthcare like Medicaid? You can also try telemedicine if there isn't much around you. My personal experience with mental health and porn addiction is if your mental health sucks it's REALLY hard to stop watching porn because the porn is helping you cope, albeit maladaptively. So get some meds/therapy and you might find it easier to cut out the porn and replace it with healthier coping mechanisms.

 

Be careful.