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Findom and its endless loop

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by silkroad, Feb 22, 2023.

  1. silkroad

    silkroad New Fapstronaut

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    Dear community,
    I'm a 28-year-old man from Poland (so please, excuse my English). I've been struggling with porn addiction since I remember. I have had multiple attempts to break up with it and they turned out to be more or less effective. The longest one was for about 6 months.
    But around 2018 this problem became even more degrading to me. Not in terms of time consumption or more deviant stuff. To be honest I manage to spend even less time on porn. However, what makes me feeling like a scum even more is my findom addiction, which to me seems to work shoulder-to-shoulder with the porn addiction.
    I don't relapse to findom every day. Not even every week. In most cases not even every month. But when I do, I relapse really hard and I start feeling like all my efforts are burnt to ashes. I happen to spend like a week salary in just an hour of arousal.
    The guilt that I feel after such relapse is extremely devastating. I start realizing that these amounts should have been invested in holidays with my lovely wife or other other things that I enjoy doing, family gifts, etc.
    Can anyone here relate to my findom addiction? I feel like it's to late for me. I failed everyone in my life by giving away my hard earned money for this irrational adrenaline and dopamine rush. Pardon my words, but it feels like a brain cancer, like a beast swallowing me entirely and I don't stand any chances against it.
    It makes me feeling that my life is not worth living anymore. That the best choice is just to end it.

    This is my first post here. But it might be the last thing I've ever written. Today's guilt and suicidal thoughts are so strong that I don't even have strength to fight it anymore. It seems better to just end it once and for all.
     
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  2. Struggleisreal77

    Struggleisreal77 Fapstronaut

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    I have problems with pornography but unfortunately I can't relate to this issue with findom.

    Maybe have your wife be in charge of the money if you're doing stuff like that. Be careful man

    Don't give up if feeling suicidal, there's always a way forward. The best you can do with your bad decisions is to learn from them and make better decisions moving forward.
     
  3. One could say: you did not fail everyone in your life. Instead, everyone failed you.

    Does your wife know about this addiction? Has she been helping you? Does family know about this addiction and have they helped? Is there any organization or group dedicated to helping men recover from this addiction? Do doctors consider drug, smoking, or alcohol addiction as serious as findom or porn addiction?

    For some men, no amount of money would be able to help porn addiction recovery, especially when predators prefer to keep those men addicted. That reality is very horrifying.

    I hope that you recover. I believe that you can overcome this. Some people like to see men suffer from these types of addictions, especially because such men can then be easily abused or manipulated. Such predators who prey on and manipulate men are absolutely and truly disgusting. But I have faith that you will recover. I truly believe you will.
     
  4. born3

    born3 Fapstronaut

    please talk to someone about this. Stay alive please, things might seem overwhelming at the moment but they will get better. Talk to someone about how you feel and keep coming back here to post. You can get through this.
     
  5. Hi,
    I think it's great that you open up here about your findom addiction. You are not alone in this. I was involved in femdom, and I have come to understand how the mechanisms of femdom and findom works. Findom is a form of femdom.
    Once you understand how it works and why you keep going back and do what you actually hate, you will be able to dismantle the whole thing. Like you dismantle a bomb.

    I wrote an article about findom in my journal. You can read it here

    Hang on man. I know how low you feel. But I know there is a way out.
    It's necessary you take the full responsibility for your life and all the choices you make.

    Take some time to go through this relapse and then take the time what you need to prevent yourself from making this choice again.
     
  6. dan8787

    dan8787 Fapstronaut

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    Hang in there buddy, I am in the same boat.
     
  7. dan8787

    dan8787 Fapstronaut

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    Try everyday for most of the day, it sucks, nothing gets done.
     
  8. mdz

    mdz Fapstronaut

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    Keep on fighting and staying away from findom and porn. I know you can make it.
    I was so close to jump into the findom rabbit hole. Actually that was my "rock bottom" moment, when I decided to quit all porn.

    If the brain can be wired to do this, it can be rewired too.
     
  9. loneloan

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    please tell us you are still here! :( the community has helped very serious cases..youre not a lost cause
     
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  10. Joetrader1

    Joetrader1 Fapstronaut

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    Hi man it is very hard, the only way to sotp it it seems to literlly fast 24hrs only water, and after that you should have intermittent fasting lifestyle, skipping dinners 2 per week or 3. also avoid alcohol. if you do this you will have discipline and be able to be free for like most of the time, however relapsing like once or twice per year unfortunately it is common, it should be less often with time so enjoy your healing journey and prioritize discipline and denying the flesh.
     
  11. El Chico

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    This is fuc*ing heart breaking and i will keep my journey to erase the world of this sickness that plagues the young ones.
    Dont talk like that anymore, there is a CURE! I repaleat YOU CAN HEAL YOUR BRAIN and stay out. I just hope i am not too late jesus christ, i struggled against that addiction for 5 years and i know everything about everything you said. I al clean for two years and i a therapist and i make my live helping people getting rid of the plague of an addiction. There is literally no talk about this in schools or TV, its taboo, and it will take ages to be seen with the serious thought it should. We cant even open the eyes for porn addiction let alone findom addiction. But there is a cure and a therapist will help you!!! I am full of patients but if you cant look for a therapist i will help you, message me and we will cure it!
    Email fmcc93@gmailcom
    Dont lose hope, you will beat this i know this, you just need a little help!

    Stay strong!!! Hope this still reaches you
     

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