My demeanour seems to be making people awkward today.

I don't mean that in a bad way, but I've noticed dudes look down when they see me and respect me more, from a total strangers too. But back to today, it seems like everyone was acting more awkward than usual today, maybe everyone has some level awkwardness in them and I'm only seeing it today and maybe you don't know how to hide it well when you don't have that much experience in feeling that way. But when you're no stranger to it; its going to take quite a lot to make you act out those feelings. I can say that I feel al little different, my self esteem is a little healthier and my voice is a lot deeper and clearer,

the only thing I need to get into in better form ins my body which I'm not sure if its possible, I did a bit of shadow boxing and kicking in my room and I felt off balance, not to much some of the stiffness I've developed in my upper back, neck and lower back. I still have a little pessimist mindset about some of my health problems but its not irrational and there is reason for concern but all in all, I never expected much from nofap (especially super powers) but it seems to be leading me into the right direction.

 

yeah its crazy, maybe I didn't see it before but everyone is really insecure and feel awkward just as much as me if not even more.. I haven't noticed it before but everyone is responding to me differently, but I guess people out and about that I never met before probably feel that I was always like that but people I know are literally curling up in a metaphorical sense and acting venerable as the days progress... these are people who work day to day with, what i love the most is how even if my mind cares or worries, its never expressed outwardly and people have to ask how I'm feeling or what my intentions are before they probably make their move, especially the females, they get really uncomfortable not knowing whats on your mind or how clear your feelings are in situations. Its really weird to explain but unless the same people I see day in day out changing and treating me much differently compared to the previous months.