Crossdressing dreams and tempted to actually buy pantyhose

One simple solution. Dont give in to your additc behavior and keep up no pmo

 

Yep.. definitely keep going. Two weeks is a great point to build from but isn't going to be enough to stop these thoughts.

You can also have "pretty" and be a man. Workout, look good, hair/skin care, manscaping if you want (I have my balls clean and chest hair trimmed, I like it and so does the wife). Nice clothes don't have to be pantyhose either.

Just keeping going one day at a time.

BTW, I'm only on day 9 (nearly) so I feel the pain and urges too for sure.

 

Your brain does this to you during the first few weeks. You gotta tough it out. In my first reboot I literally had hallucinations.

Do it right the first time and you'll never experience it again.

Pretty sure I have an account of my first few weeks here Am I a Sissy?? (Actually a good story with happy ending, trust me, read the whole thing)

This is all normal, don't worry. Just keep going. For me the best remedies for this were to be outside my house, going to lots of social events (for some reason talking to people shuts down the porn area of my brain), and lots of exercise, particularly running and composite leg workouts like squats, lunges, and deadlifts. I think the exercises I mentioned are the best option for three reasons:

1. you're distracting yourself with something healthy, good job
2. you're tiring out the muscles in your legs and pelvic floor, so your body is too tired to get a boner
3. erections happen when your dick and PC muscles fill with blood and don't expel it. Running and leg day actively move blood away from those areas to your legs so that the leftover blood doesn't leave you residually horny. One intense exercise a day is good, but walking also really helps with erections

 

If that's the case then you just need to put yourself in situations where you cannot PMO. Spend the entire day either at work, outside, at school, whatever. If you're not in your room, your house, any private area, you won't be able to PMO.

Before you go to bed, do like 100 pushups or some shit so you're tired for a while and you can sleep. Then get up, eat breakfast, leave your room, and repeat. Yeah it might be 30 days of this, but you have the rest of your life to enjoy free from porn. That's all it is, 30 days separating you from the rest of your life. It can either be 30 days from now, or 30 days from the next relapse. Make it 30 days from now.

 

The task is simple, but you're going to have to be creative sometimes to get the job done. It can be done right the first time. The reboot is 90 days, that can either be 90 days from now or more, make it easy on yourself and make it 90 days from today.

 

Dreams will be common when you're rebooting. Your brain is starving for stimulation, and will resort o anything to get you to go back to porn. Be mindful of anything the previous day that might have left you stimulated or horny for the dream, otherwise carry on.

This is not a sign that you are going to fail, it's a sign that the reboot is working. Neurons wired to porn are firing during your sleep in an attempt to get you to PMO, and when you don't they literally wither and die. You are doing a good job, keep going strong.

 

It could be poop

 

Trust me, don't regret it. I regret how much time and money i wasted buying women's clothes. I often justified it, thinking it was going to make me happy, or that it wasn't sexual. But it always was, and I always ended up wanting more.
This just fed the porn addiction further.

Today i was tempted to buy a dress. There is a part of me that regrets not buying it. But there is a bigger part of me that is happy i resisted. Because it wouldn't have just been wearing the dress. It would have been the porn, the masturbation, and the inability to enjoy time with a friend this evening, or to be productive around the house. In other words, it made me slightly unhappy to say no to the dress, but saying no has always led to a more full life.

I don't remember the clothes i didn't buy.
I remember with sorrow the ones i did buy, and how i used them to spoil my life.

You'll get there. You're being honest and you're learning your triggers.

As far as the invisible lust demon stroking your balls... That is the single most amazing image I've read on the forum! It captures how much it can burn to not have that release...

But the demon isn't in control. If you fight it it will retreat. The more you give into it, the more havoc it will create in your life.

Recognise sexual urges for what they are. Urges.
What other urges do you get in your life? Do you give in to all of those?

Riding the wave helps me. Basically you acknowledge the feeling is there but you remember that it will go. Some point. Hopefully soon. But it will go.

If you give in to it it will learn that it can just come back quicker and harder.

 

That's one of my main experiences too. I used to try to focus on "not thinking" of my fetish, but I've found focusing on reality to be more effective.