180 DAYS SEMEN RETENTION CHALLENGE for those who are determined to truly recover and live 100% otp

I start this challenge again as I feel badly out of control and it is day 0 for me for I just relapsed to PMO and previous relapse was just 3 days ago...
Report for the day 0
1)Pray God-done
10)Go to bed early and wake up early- done ( 21-5.30)
21)Gratitude - done
18) RYP + 20)AVI -0% not done just prayed in the morning
7)+6)Work on your talents/work on your career - not done I am thinking about this one right now and have hard time choosing or deciding on it
19)Control my speech- done this one wasn't too bad for I haven't left my house for the whole day
12)AEFF- not done
14)Meditate- done( 5 minutes)
15)Declutter - done just a bit which is not that significant at all +16)Clean your environment - done
3)Study about reboot- done(looks like I have a lot of mind cleaning to do )
4)Take cold shower daily- not done don't feel ready for it yet
5)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views- not done(it just escalated from looking in the wrong direction , to wrong thoughts to wrong desires and actions)
8)Engage in physical activities-not done maybe do later today
9)Eat moderately and healthy- not done had some comparatively large meals though I don't feel like I ate too much
11)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants- done
2)Stay accountable daily - done
13)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due -not done(procrastinating maybe because of the bad organization/I try to keep a list)
17)The task - not done(just procrastinated on it )and for tomorrow-(haven't planed but what I know has to be done))


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Report for the day 1
1)Pray God-done
2)Go to bed early and wake up early- done ( 21.30-4.30)
3)Gratitude - done
4)Control my speech- done although I had some fun talking to some new people today
5)AEFF- done
6)Meditate- done
7)Declutter -Clean your environment -not done
8)Study about reboot- done(one of the negative effects is that a tonne of time gets wasted never to return,especially with edging))
9)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views- done(to the best of what I currently can in hot weather and in the gym )
10)Engage in physical activities- done 1,5 hour in the gym
11)Eat moderately -not done
12)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants- done
13)Stay accountable daily - done
14)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due from the list -not done(hadn't done the list)
15)The task - done(done only what I had to )and for tomorrow-(haven't planed but what I know has to be done and it is the same as yesterday and until next thursday))


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Report for the day 2
1)Pray God-done
2)Go to bed early and wake up early- done ( 21.30-5)
3)Gratitude - done
4)Control my speech- done and again I had some fun talking to some new people today about manual and automatic cars
5)AEFF- done something for sometimes I'm aware of them very subtly 'on the edge of awareness' and not really knowing what to do, but I'm willing to experiment memory and time allowing
6)Meditate- done
7)Declutter -Clean your environment -not done it's interesting how the mind most of the time prioritizing something else over it unless it becomes too bad and starts to distress.Guess it'd be a great idea to schedule time for it.
8)Study about reboot-not done because I got obsessed with the preparation to the exam coming in 4 days next week
9)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views- done(to the best of what I currently can in hot weather
I still do notice staff when driving or walking down the street but try either to look other way or change my minds attitude towards what I see)
10)Engage in physical activities- done if 4 hours of driving amounts to it otherwise no
11)Eat moderately -done
12)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants- done
13)Stay accountable daily - done(delayed but done)
14)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due from the list -not done(hadn't done the list)(still fail to make a list)
15)The task - done(done only what I had to )and for tomorrow-(haven't planed but what I know has to be done and it is the same as yesterday and until next thursday))


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Report for the day 3
1)Pray God-done
2)Go to bed early and wake up early- done
3)Gratitude -not done
4)Control my speech- done
5)AEFF- done
6)Meditate- done
7)Declutter -Clean your environment -not done.
8)Study about reboot-not done
9)Guard your eyes from nudity and indecent views- done
10)Engage in physical activities- done gym and cycling
11)Eat moderately -done on the edge of what can be described as moderate
12)Do not use alcohol,drugs or any intoxicants- done
13)Stay accountable daily - done(delayed but done)
14)Keep track and perform the necessary daily tasks/activities that are due from the list -not done(hadn't done the list)(still fail to make a list)
15)The task - done(done only what I really looked forward to )and for tomorrow-(haven't planed but what I know has to be done and it is the same as yesterday until coming Thursday))


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Day 0 after quite a string of falls 10 days away from one another.Self esteem quite low,a bit sad but still have a tiny hope.
It's the mental battle where we lose or win ,tiny hardly perceptible thought acceptances of frivolously interpreted happenings that suddenly turn into urges...like a fishing hooks with baits. I wonder if fish or beast once caught going to take the same bait?..Well apparently I do...
Anyway I have to start with setting goals for my life, as it become quite a cluttered mess where I'm pulled after many interests at the same time while some part of me realizes that I won't have time to pursue all I fancy myself to be. Therefore I want to downsize but find myself unable even to start.I'll try to set goals and do prioritization now.

 

It's an abbreviation of realize your potential where the energy and time freed from pmo are to be applied to the realization of your dream...usually it would involve the solution of your big problem for which you never have time or energy.
As it comes to the progress it can be applied rather conventionally like if you study something or building a house ,or it can be rather subjective if there is no real timescale but rather a feeling if you are on your way there or not.

 

It seems that one of the aftereffects of loosing semen is the loss or rather significant weakening in the functioning of the immune system.For me it usually manifests in easy catching of all viruses from coughs and sneezes around either when shopping or when using public transport. So the benefit of holding to your 'stuff' would be a properly functioning immune system and very rare headaches if any.

 

Hi brother, can you describe what is the full life for you and what is stopping you from living it now?

 

You are right brother, it is an adventure between the appearance of the problem and achieving the intended solution and it goes on and on and on...until we have experienced all of it and hunger to go beyond...