What the title says pretty much. I've found that while I'm likely to reset when I'm feeling down or depressed, I'm equally if not more likely to reset when I'm doing well, like on some level I'm trying to sabotage myself. I wouldn't be surprised if others did this too.
I self-sabotated myself today. I was full of energies, and now i feel like a rotten Toblerone. I don't even know why i did it. Probably i was just bored, that's the only way i can relapse, but it's funny how i just ruin everything for a few seconds of pleasure. Be careful to not start a Void of relapse. I relapse a lot after sometime of abstinence.
Rotten Toblerone lol. Agreed though, I'm stuck in a cycle of starting to feel good about my streak, then knowingly spoiling it.
there is a quote about habits and bad ones self sabotage because . its what we know there may be issues that arise because of self sabotage but its not an uncomfortable feeling because we are so used to it . The problem is going deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole . self esteem issues probably play a part. maybe you weremt hugged ebough as a child maybe you spent most of your adult life alone maybe you didnt get an A in math . everyone has some level of insecurities , self sabotage is what we know there is probably comfort in that . that you can just reset the situation realistically its not so black and white . if you mean self sabotage as in porn . well we are human and humans have needs so probably a mixture of both. that and lots of boredom
