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Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by CactusLemon, Aug 21, 2022.

  1. CactusLemon

    CactusLemon Fapstronaut

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    I'm not sure exactly what to write so I'll keep it short for now. I joined the nofap forums last week and jumped into one of the weekly group meetings to listen in (which I found really helpful to hear stories and updates from other people)

    My name's Adam and I'm 38 years old and I've been addicted to porn and cybersex (Not sure what it's called these days! But essentially camming with women) since I was around 14-15 years old. I didn't notice the addictive patterns for years as I was using it as a crutch for my depression, anxiety, stress, boredom, etc. It finally caught up with during my late 20's when I realized it was having an impact on my daily live, my relationships. I never felt happy and would constantly be thinking about when I can get home for my next 'hit'.

    I eventually started to learn what some of my triggers were, like being hungover or stressed out, and it slightly improved over the years be lowering my trigger exposure. But recently I just broke up with my partner and it's clear a lot can be attributed to my dysfunctional way I think about sex and how it affects my daily life.

    This feels like the last straw for me, it's been too long and I want to make a real change. I've somehow managed to go 29 days now without PMO which has been insanely difficult but I'm not giving in this time!

    Thanks for reading anyway and nice to meet you all. I'm hoping support in here can help and I'll try be active on the forum to keep myself on the right track
     
  2. Bale

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    Hey man, this is not easy but it does get easier. It's good that you identified your triggers. Mine are pretty much the same: hungover, stress, feeling bad about myself in general.
    Growing in maturity and handling negative emotions better is what will keep you from relapsing. Avoiding exposure to triggers helps in the beginning.

    Welcome, glad to have you in here!
     
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  3. CactusLemon

    CactusLemon Fapstronaut

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    Hey Bale, thanks and I appreciate the reply! I agree that growing up and being able to handle negative emotions is really important and that's something I have to work on also.

    I'm going to try and spend time on here each day interacting and using it as a tool to keep myself grounded

    Amazing job on the 500+ days btw
     
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  4. Bale

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    Haha I didn't realize my signature was still there, it doesn't show up on mobile. I'm far from a 500 day streak, but counting days has proven to be counter-effective so I don't do it any more. Seeing my life improving each month may be more difficult to measure, but much more rewarding in the end.
     
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  5. ThinkSmarter

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    Welcome bro!

    I have a few general tips
    First of all you can start a journal here Ages 30-39 | NoFap® I believe that to be very helpful, because you can use it as accountability and think twice before you take any decision and also you can help/inspire others!

    Another advice that I can give you is to use this opportunity to not only remove this addiction, but become a Better person overall and learn to live your life again in a healthier way! Complementary to this I suggest to not count days, but make the days count!

    Remember that you will Always regret it, but at the same time a relapse can be proven helpful if you learn something important that will help you on and a relapse is not a reset as the knowledge you gain don't go anywhere and the resistance against habit builds self-discipline, which also remains!

    I also recommend learning about a very broad topic, which is dopamine and Why your brain is addicted to p, but it's also useful on other addictions too and it's a very enlightening thing to know about, also you can search for nofap pdf and read that too, it might be better for you actually, I started searching about that topic myself today and to be honest I was afraid to find out more about that as I didn't knew the result of learning about it, but it helps a lot!

    Another thing I learned recently is that "urges" are brain suggestions based on your past habits, so change your habits and your mind will change its suggestions too! Also, stop listening to your mind as the only truth and when you feel stressed or frustrated know that that's good, it means you are evolving and your brain fears getting out of the comfort zone as its something new, but you should keep going!

    Another recent lesson is that we shouldn't look at triggers as triggers all the time, because some of them are very pure and our excessive porn use is what makes it look like a trigger, but even if it isn't pure, it's our habit that makes us want to satisfy the need and back then I was young, but now I have a choice to how I will respond to it and I choose to think rationally!

    Abstaining will leave a void in your life, so I suggest finding your way to deal with all the extra time and using it to your advantage!

    And here's what I believe about everyone starting this journey
    This journey Will be the best in your life and you Will get back all of the benefits, like believing in yourself again, self-confidence, self-discipline and time for greater things!
     
  6. CactusLemon

    CactusLemon Fapstronaut

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    Hey ThinkSmarter, thanks for the reply!

    This is a great idea and I'll try starting one. It feels like a big commitment but if it holds me accountable then daily updates on here would be worth it

    This is a good way of looking at it and I'm really trying to work on myself in other areas. I have social anxiety also which can get pretty bad so I'm going to therapy and looking to find a weekly meet up. I'm hoping this, with working on my porn addiction will improve my happiness a lot

    I've been reading books on addiction also to help understand exactly what's going on when I get these urges

    Thanks a lot for the tips and it's really encouraging to read comments like this
     
  7. ThinkSmarter

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    Yeah I have that too, but I started going to the park even though I now stopped for giving more time into my studies, but when I started going there and staying among others, it really helped me so I can suggest it.

    As I said there is the nofap pdf, even though I'm not into reading, I started reading it a week ago and believe is a really valuable one as I too want to know more about addictions and the logic behind that.
     
  8. CactusLemon

    CactusLemon Fapstronaut

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    Thanks, I've just downloaded this now so I'll give it a read.

    I've been walking in the park most days also but I really need some more exposure to help with the social anxiety. Even typing in a forum like this or in a group chat can be really difficult at times and that's online! So frustrating.

    Thanks again for your help
     
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