Need to come back here more often

I believe in you. I've been feeling pretty disheartened myself. I was off these forums for well over a year. I had a beautiful lady I was dating, albeit it was a long distance thing. But I think what really sealed the deal on us no longer dating was my inability to put this addiction to bed. I was always honest with her about it when she asked, but I was never really able to make any progress, and to some degree I guess its because I stopped taking it seriously. I don't want to lose someone else because of it in the future so I'm actively working on myself again, currently reading about Cognitive Behavioral THerapy. I also checked out a few other books from the library on addiction and recovery.

Anyways, we can do this. I'm 31 years old and have been addicted since I was probably 14ish? That's a long time. These days it seems its worse, like I don't even put up a fight half the time. And when I do, I get bad physical symptoms like frequent urination to the level of wondering if it's a UTI (but when I relapse the symptoms seem to get better). I think there's a lot of people out there who don't understand how difficult this is, especially because its tied in to our sex drives and that's not some drug that you can just stop buying from your dealer.

Sorry for rambling, but I believe you can do this. That WE can do this. As OP said, if you are younger and haven't been addicted for many years, now is your chance to STOP. It is much easier than being an addict for well over a decade.