Day 4 (2): it was also uneasy. But still, it was a good start of the weekend. As I said before, I hit the gym. Yet, I'm waking up with some kind of dizziness in my head. Can't understand why. Maybe it's a heat, maybe something else. The only thing I understand right now: I sleep badly despite the early timing, I waking up is also became a hard part.
I agree wholeheartedly!!! Let's do it. I am absolutely psyched to do the 40 km challenge with you and to keep up with our streak. Let's go!!!!
Day 18/90 20% done wowsors. Have to say, yesterday/today were definitely the toughest on me, lots of urges and almost broke my streak... I have to stay alert. Maybe I will actually go for a run to clear my mind.
20/90- 20 days again! Feeling really good. However, the urges are high. Recently, I have been putting myself in very uncomfortable situations to try and conquer my fears. To overcome my fear of snakes, I visited a snake park last week and have been subsequently watching videos of snakes on YouTube daily. I am still scared of snakes for obvious reasons but my fear of them is slowly waning. I am actually beginning to see that snakes are actually quite misunderstood. Following on the theme of being uncomfortable, I accompanied my girlfriend to a get together of her friends yesterday. That in itself was nerve wrecking. Meeting new people is a very uncomfortable experience for me and makes me very nervous. I handled it well enough until the point where we were all to sing karaoke. Despite my refusal, the crowd was not taking no for an answer. I gathered the courage, chose a song and sang along. It was terrible for the first minute hearing my out of tune voice but after that I started to enjoy it. I stopped being self aware and did it. I was so happy. I later sang karaoke with my girlfriend which for me was really great. I still can't believe that was me who sung in front of a group of people. Fear has really held me back from life. Not any more!
Well done! I was in a similar situation yesterday. An all-day outing with my wife's friends. I survived, was somewhat comfortable, and actually had a little fun and felt better afterwards. I really didn't want to go but I committed so i did. I know if I didn't i would have just stayed home, indulged, and felt like a POS. And yes, karaoke or anything standing in front of people is a nightmare! again, well done.
I think the idea of karaoke for a lot of Westerns is to get up there and try their hardest to replicate to a tee whatever song they are singing, despite how terribly unrealistic that is. Because the intention is near perfection failure is all but assured, and this creates a certain apprehensive foreboding dread. It's my understanding that in Japan the it's kinda the opposite. Essentially the more terrible you sound the more you are applauded. That idea is more in line with your experience. Letting lose and shedding the shroud of imagined judgement is kinda the point. I've said it before and I'll say it again; it's super cool you are confronting your fears.
Day 5 (2): The day was kinda... boring at the beginning. Now I know, why I wanted to relapse. Yet, didn't do it. Read some books, managed to do the home task, practiced the guitar. Okay, I gotta job to do today. Live.