I'm so worried my husband is chatting with people mostly bc of pics I've seen on his phone in the past. He recently relapsed in August. I always think he's going to meet up with someone. Bc I've found where he has made arrangements to meet people. He says he never has that it's just a rush for him a fantasy idea. I think at times I'm just going crazy. This addiction of his puts me in a spin. I want to trust him but my fear and past experience says other wise. He has been taking this pill called vyvance it's for his ADD. The doctor decided to try him on it knowing his problem. (Experimental)And I know in the past when he took adderall it was really bad. He was super Horney and acted out. This pill is also a stimulant and even he tells me he didn't feel the same just really happy and focused. I just don't think he would tell me if it was bad. He never has come to me and said he acted out I have always just caught him. I just haven't Hurd good things about this regarding his addiction. I was off today so I told him I would be around his work for quite a few hours getting stuff done he works near a small city. And I asked him if he wanted to get lunch. Since he is covering for his boss he told me it's prob not a good day bc he is so busy. And he hadn't been getting lunch the last 2 days bc he's so busy. So after awhile I went to his work to see if he was there. My Insecurity's got the best of me and he wasn't. I tryed texting him didn't hear from him in like 20 mins. He says he had to go to a clients and pick stuff up to finish an order. He says he got lunch while he was out. But I was thinking why wouldnt he tell me this he left. He usually tells me even if I'm working. I know I sound petty but I have delt with this along time. He told me he wants to stop this porn addiction what ever it takes. But he's said this so meny times already and with the meds I'm just going crazy. I feel like checking his phone when he goes to sleep to see. My mind is rushing with so meny bad thaults I get lost in there. He has been really sweet and thaultful of me and really great attitude since he got his mojo back.and taking the meds (He quit fapping and could not get an erection for almost 4 weeks.) but now that he's got it back I know he's got to feel better. It always seems to be bad with his addiction when our relationship is good. So I never know how to enjoy it. Always thinking am I going to find somthing again this time. I need help. Please any suggestions?
This is a hard situation. At the moment, my wife and I are separated due to my PMO addiction and she is seeing another guy. As hard as it is, I try and block it out to which I would suggest to you in regards to your partner. It's hard, really hard but maybe just give him the benefit of the doubt. Until you have concrete proof, he may in fact be telling you the truth 100%. Also, talk to him and tell him how you are feeling and why, you may be surprised that he actually doesn't know how you are feeling too.
Thanks oldskoollover, I appreashate your suggestion. I'm sorry to hear about your wife. I'm hoping for you and your son she comes back. It hurts me to see that u have gone so far and put in so much effort only for her to leave. I'm praying she will see how much of a difference u have made. I enjoy reading your posts like I do everyone else. Please keep posting on here to us all to stay on the right track. You mean somthing to us on here and hearing you doing well only encourages us to keep going in our lives of this horrible addiction. Stay positive I know this is very hard. U are in my thaults.
Hello Juniperblue. You sound like i do, wondering what he is doing and if you can trust him. I have been reading a book about that and it says that it is about your need to find safety. You have been traumatised by his actions and are doing all you can to not be hurt again. I would suggest you look at setting up some boundries to make you feel more secure. You can't control him but if you state what you need to feel comfortable then it might help. Take a look at the book 'Your sexually addicted spouse'. I only started it this week and found it great for outlining why i felt this way. Best of luck to you and your partner.
