You got this Man! Jump up dust off and let's get rolling together!! Ready let's go! We're goin 90Days and Beyond! Hoorah!! Sometimes We have to stop counting the days and just look towards the ultimate goal like Art said!
Thanks, guys, had a second slip up Monday, so I'm just completing Day 1 now. Brief again, thankfully, and stayed away from P. And yeah, you guys are right, My goal is to never look at P again. Abstaining from MO is just a means to an end. I've only used P 4 times since I started this before Christmas. That is sooooo much better than I've ever done in a long time.
Keep on Going Man! Also try and remind ourselves to know that this process is ZigZag!! Not perfect and will have our setbacks until we know where the traps are and how to avoid them in the long term that will Only serve to help us have Victory!!! You got it! We goin 90Days and Many More!!
Day 2. Had a good day, had a physical evaluation with my personal trainer and did pretty well, so that was cool . Then actually got a little time to write this evening, which was also kind of nice.
Well I just slipped up after going 23 days. I was really seeing the benefits too. Back to day 0 but glad to be embarking on another attempt.
Temptations are coming back but I pulled through today. Day 4. @uzaname sorry to hear that. If you're like me, you're vulnerable right now. A slip up isn't too bad, don't let your mind play tricks on you into slipping worse. I know whenever I get a good streak in I'm always prone relapsing hard.
@liveFreeOrDie appreciate the support! Haven’t beat myself up too much today. Just getting on with it and starting again.
Well, I slipped up yet again, but still held off from the P. Even though I was definitely feeling draw for it. I'll take the little loss over the big one. Day 0.
After more than 21 days of not doing this filthy habit, I fell into the masturbation trap again. I am feeling bad, but at the same time, I remind myself that I need to be strong to go for a another run, and this time even longer. I think at this stage of my life, I now understand the approach of this habit to me. The way it happens is as follows, I do it once, and I feel bad for a very long time, which eventually created unexplained depression. This depression then causes me to feel down and the only exit to heaven would be masturbation and then when I do it, I feel bad, depression, masturbation, feeling bad, depression, masturbation, and so on. I trust at this stage I need not to feel bad, on the other side to feel the blessing that I have an opportunity to go for another run. Feeling blessed.
Day 1, hope everyone is having a good weekend. I actually felt like I got allot done, despite a bad start Saturday morning. Sorry about that, @One step at a time!. I think your handle says it all, though, and 21 days is a good step!
The cycle your describing, we've probably all been there, brother! Don't despair, I'm optimistic that some day, we'll break it. But, we need all our strength and determination. The enemy is a shrewd and especially vicious one. We have to use all our might, wit and different strategies to cope with it. Me, for example, I can tell you that the depression, hope of relief, PM, emptiness, doubts and more depression cycle is one, I've experienced a lot. Even more, what is the worst of it is that the depression makes me doubt that God will forgive me. And this is actually the worst part of it. Me, not being sure, if God will still help me and stand by my side. This is, in my opinion, a specifically mean weapon of the enemy, sowing doubts in our "sacrosanct". Have you too, experienced this? How do you deal with it?
