I wanna kill myself

I hate myself, im 16 years old, I think im pedophile, this is embarrasing but im gonna do it, you see there fanmade on fnaf called five night in anime, and also there sfm diferent, i masturbated since 2015, when i was 10, in november 2021, when i google in google image, there picture named wow you seriously watched cp, i tought it was fan art, so ill ignore then ill search sfm one, my mind put worried and saying *are you watching cp* so ill ignore it because they have form adult but when i masturbated i regret do it and i feel bad myself. And also another reason im zoophile because for this, also i wanna quit porn addiction in month ago in 2021 but my ocd telling me to do masturbated, i hate myself, i wanna kill myself.

 

Also another reason im pedophile, its because since 2021, when i have 15 years old and 16 years old, i didnt masturbated but instead i had crush, it was from touhou project, it was 495 and 500 years old vampire and i thought it was legal, and also i thought 18 is the years when start to become pedophile, And after realize its consider pedophile and in 16 is was start to consider pedophile, i regret to do it, and i have another crush touhou project girl, it was reimu, aya and sakuya. Reimu doesnt have confirmed years ago i believe but she look teenager, Aya look like teenage or adult and sakuya look like adult. So i dont know if those count as pedophile.

 

Dude, you re seriously this improved me a bit, idk if still regret or not, but this calm me down a bit, thanks you so much dude, question, you think im zoophile because i got erection while i pat on her stomach on cat, because this i did pat to trying calm her down since she was acting weird.

 

Alright, now question, can i play the game, audio or anything, because i cant play since it related to i did pedophile things, like audio, i cant listen because they get me horny while listening because want to masturbate to that fnia.

 

Alright last question so i dont need brothered you, can still play the games even tho i didnt not get horny, leading to relapse, because one of my favorite game, cant play since on fnaf sfm, because one of picture and video they have this dude on my favorite game, i cant play my favorite game because of that, and also are you sure doesnt make me zoophilia?, because i masturbated to fnia and fnaf sfm, and also masturbated myself in front of dog, but i didnt masturbated to dog, i masturbated myself, i did it since was 12 old years ago, Can still play touhou because i dont have crush anymore, i just like the music and game. Also i forgot to tell you when having crush some touhou project girls, i was watching asmr, during in this video, got erection and i got precum, and the worst of things i watch everytime night, Ill stopped watching asmr, got erection an I dont know if im pedophile or not, Also i can still play the franchise of my favorite games, since one of walthought it get me erection to a baby NOTE I DIDNT WANT TO GET ERECTION It was groinal response, but due ocd i repeat to not get erection but i failed so i quit the video, But another game of my favorite franchise they didnt have baby, also i see one nfsw picture idk it was adult or not ,he was skinny but he have muscle so i thought it was adult and he was having sex with a woman which look like adult so idk its make me a pedophile or not, Also i masturbate at woman which was look adult, but idk how old are so ts still make a pedophile or not. Also one scary thing, its in august 2021, When i was watching the nsfw skyrim or fallout, they have baby, so i quit because i didnt want to masturbate to it, but few seconds later my head appear to give to urges masturbate baby (even got me erection but i didnt want it) but after seconds they stop giving urges to masturbate i dont know what the fuck was that my head but i didnt want that but i didnt masturbate, Its very scary idk its still make pedophile or not, Also having crush on fictional (not real) anthropomorphic animal is zoophilia too? Because i got crush from sonic character is blaze she have 14, i was watching video called tails get trolled it appear blaze here, I quit video, and my ocd tell me to do not watch video because you have crushed on blaze however ill ignore it and then ill watch the video and after i quit and feel bad I cant play sonic games after doing that, and also this is still make me pedophile or not?, Also i see video between spider and catwoman because i was horny and want masturbated to catwoman i believe it was kissing or sex video, In this video my mind put worried Is spiderman underage or not but i thought spiderman is adult in spiderman 3 and catwoman idk what she years ago but she look like adult, however i still feel bad during in this video, so i quit, I didnt masturbated but got erection and maybe got precum, I cant watch spiderman after that, neither watch batman after that Sorry for long question, Sorry for the shitty english, I need question.

 

Shit i dont know wanna to do man, Ill sometime ignore ocd, i cant play that, im fucked up. I wish never masturbated