Masturbation using imagination / not using porn? Thoughts?

Same thing

during sex, in order to cum, I have to masturbate and think things that I do when I masturbate.

Is a normal behavior, this happen to people even before the high speed internet was invented. Still, if you do a lot, doing death grip etc, is pretty much the same IMO

 

For me, personally, I know for a fact that the bad vice is porn. Masturbation is natural and healthy so long as you don't do it obsessively. In my private journey I set myself a rule that I cannot watch pornography at all, but I can masturbate sometimes. The analogy I use is for me Porn is like crystal meth and Masturbation is like having a chocolate bar. Of course you shouldn't exagerate on sugary candies, but it won't affect you if you have one little peace every 2 or 3 days.

So I established a personal rule that I can MO 3 times per week, but I always try to do less if I can, sometimes even staying 10 days or more without it. Right now I am on day 40 of my Journey, and it's working pretty well. My anxiety and depression decreased a lot, I feel more motivated, and when I masturbate it is much more pleasurable then it used to be with porn, I don't feel bad afterwards. On the days that I MO, I usually do it before going to sleep, and then I sleep like a baby and wake up really well the next day.

Sometimes I imagine things while MOing, but other times I just focus on the feeling. But I think there is nothing wrong about Masturbating.
Of course, everyone has their own struggles. My addiciton was never about MOing, it was always about Porn, so that's why I only want to abandon Porn.

I have a girlfriend, but currently we are in a long distance scenario. Soon we will be living together again, and then I plan to abandon masturbation and focus all my sexual energy to the times with her.

 

IMHO, not advisable but definitely better than masturbation with porn.