Well I haven't touched myself for 3 days but day 3 has been difficult because I started looking for Japanese porn because I had a bad nightmare but I was just about to watch a movie and touch myself I stopped no no when I refused I felt disgusted by pornography I told myself why I'm still Seeing this shit and I closed the window I told myself no. I don't want to lose my progress I had relapses but that's enough every time I do it my self-esteem drops and I feel bad and useless but no. I would like someone to help me or explain to me why I get to see videos of transsexuals if I'm straight I get to that point of coming 6 times watching trans women and extreme anal masturbation of women but I don't understand why I get to this point and now I feel disgust and every time When I see something like that I feel disgust and repudiation. Nofap has helped me to see that pornography destroyed me for more than 10 years and little by little I am recovering and I want to leave this forever.
Good question: why do straight men become aroused by trans women and addicted to transsexual porn? Searching is a feature of internet browsing. When you find something there is a little thrill and some neurotransmitters in the brain. The porn brain gets bored, but you crave that thrill of discovery, and eventually you stumble onto transsexual porn. Another feature might be the empathy between genders that is inherent in sex. Men get some pleasure from giving pleasure to women. That requires the man to put himself into the woman's mind to observe her pleasure and share that pleasure. To empathize you must put yourself into some other person's mind. With ordinary straight porn or lesbian porn you are constantly putting yourself into the minds of an endless stream of female porn stars. Eventually, it might be that a straight man begins fantasizing about being a woman through either cross dressing or even taking hormones. That fantasizing might lead to porn featuring sissies or trans women. These are just ideas. I have found myself occasionally looking at transsexual porn - particularly the comic or CGI type. The worse problem for me is the sissification stories and comics, but I suspect it is all a result of empathizing with women in the abstract through porn rather than empathizing with a particular woman who is your real life sex partner. I'm not a psychologist, so maybe these are dumb ideas.
The answer to your question is one word: escalation. The process of addiction is a gradual one, and like all the addictions you need more and more over time. The difference in P addiction is that it's not necessarily a matter of more time watching, but more extreme content. Don't worry about your sexual orientation, that is the wrong battle front. Focus on how to quit PMO and this will stop, given enough time. Porn producers know this effect and use it massively. That is why a lot of us end up seeing stuff that they found disgusting in the past. Think about your "porn evolution" and you'll see what I mean. The problem with this is that not that many people know that process, and they think that they have turned from straight to gay. I guess that the pornification of society is one of the key ingredients to the sudden explosion of bi / gay people. They weren't that frequent but now that is the case, and I don't think it's by chance. Part of our mission is to make this process of escalation known, so people see what porn effects are. Beautiful and scary mission I must say.
Yep def this, also sexual trauma, plus the increase in endocrine disruptive chemicals in our environment/food, and social conditioning. I know for a fact that all of this has affected my confusing ass sexual identity. Some are not born that way some are made through circumstances.
