just needed to vent here. ive MO'd 3 times in less than 3 days. i had a nice 11 day streak going, then I let myself go on a trigger. yesterday I M'd after coming back from the club drunk. my inhibitions were lowered, and I saw lots of good looking women. today I got caught up in a video someone posted on twitter. straight up porn. I MO'd to that, and thats the first time ive MO'd to a porn video in almost a year. Im kinda pissed because i feel like im taking steps backwards. this is an evil addiction. tomorrow is a new day though. im starting fresh again. a week sober will be a success after the dopamine binge ive had. best of luck to everybody going through this shit.
Remember this feeling. You MO'd 3 times and all it's done is make you mad at yourself. It wasn't worth it and you know that. Remember this feeling and it will make you stronger! Thanks for sharing friend.
