Hallo Community, I´m 25 years old and I live in Austria, Vienna. I´m an evening class student and also full-time working as an engineer for medical devices in Vienna. So there is really not so much time for a girlfriend. I promised to be completely honest within this community and therefore I can tell you, that because of this time-management-problem my last relationship is 1 1/2 years ago. Another problem might be, that I´m really self confident and (most of the people say so) charming but when it gets more serious, I´m a bit nervous and shy. Since this time span (1.5 years) I had no relationship and just a few sexual short-term "relations" with girls. My sexual desire is really huge and that is a real problem for me. My first intention this evening was to relax alone a bit and watch porn while you know... Then i realized that nearly every evening ends the same way, often more than one time. Some days when I´m eroused more than one hour passes until I can think normal again. It is a real time and testosterone killer. It makes me lazy and I´m also reading the bible since some months. A few pages before i go to bed. Hopefully our tips and help and encouragement can strengthen me to forget my desires to live my sexual life with my hands. I will create a journal and I hope that this was not too long or too honest. This is day 2 and it is the first day of a new life! Michael
Good luck Michael. Glad you are here! This is a real battle your getting into, but well worth your effort! Remember that Porn ain't real! Living in reality isn't always easy, but it is were we are meant to be. Remember too that you are not alone. Peace and prayers Gus
Thank you Gus. You are totally right. I'm not alone out there and that might be the only way to success for me. Maybe the feeling of shame when I can't resist, that I have to tell it to the community here makes me stronger. Peace to you too!
