I've been here before. I succeeded for a while but then fell back into it. Now I'm checking my phone for porn, I've joined a hook up site - checking my profile for messages- cruising other members for dirty pictures, asking rent boys how much they charge and what they would do... Neglecting my job, my relationship, my friends and family. Tonight I feel like if I don't try to stop this I'll end up losing everything. I f**king hate it all. It's ruining my life and I feel helpless.
Obviously I need to change my counter.... I never got as far as 86 days. I can't remember how. I'd appreciate a reminder.
Having read this thread, it's obvious to me that you have all the motivation you need. And that IS enough; that's all there is to it.
Good to hear you're starting again. Sharing thoughts here helps clean up the mental junk that builds up trough years that we decide to keep it in. The more you share, the more you'll unburden yourself, in a sense it's introspection. You can do a more detailed one personally if the need be and burn the transcripts later. You might also look into a book I was recommended by one of the members here. It's about how to put that extra sexual energy to use. Taoist Secrets of Love - Cultivating Male Sexual Energy It explains in detail why our sexuality exists in the way it does and how we misunderstood it. I've read only 21% so far and it already helps me deal with the mind battle. Sex(ual) energy is a very good thing, but only when put to use/channeled into other activities, only fraction of a time those are sexual encounters. Check it out See you around
You cant just check in and out thats what iv found out myself after failing on a number of occassions.. You have to be here most days to find the inspiration and motivation that we have within us! Thinking I could do it alone without the help of this site was definitely one of my biggest mistakes when it comes to kickin the habit
Hey Ripley, I want to let you know that you are AMAZING. You are taking a step that others will never do. I want to let you know that it's not a sprint, it's a lifestyle change. I have failed so many times, and I too felt terrible when you have to restart, but use this failure as motivation to bounce back higher than ever before, and you'll make it. I wish you the best Ripley.
Hi Ripley -- I haven't been here for long, but it has been a great resource for me. You're doing the right thing by returning and putting your thoughts down for yourself and others to understand what you're going through.
Thank you. Those are encouraging words and I know what you say makes sense. I'm ashamed to say that I've already PMO'd this morning so the big reboot lasted less than 24 hours. I feel like a total loser.
Thanks. My reboot was short lived. I need to start again but it feels like climbing Everest this morning.
If you're quitting the fight within 24 hours, you need to want to quit more than you currently do. You simply don't want it bad enough.