Thanks @bromor appriciate your response. Definitely if drinking doesn't help with PMO addiction it is just better to stop for a while at least.
Day 4/90. The urges.. ugh. I had crazy morning wood when I woke up that would NOT go away, and worked from home without many meetings, so it was a very challenging day. So far so good though! send strength..
20/90. It's usually around this 2-3 week mark I have my biggest struggles. This time I'm determined to push through them. As the saying goes: "If not now, when?"
Chiyu hou have totally got it mate. Keep strong keep focused keep fearless. What happened in the past attempts doesn't matter. You will overcome those time. I normally falls apart at that 20-25 day mark too. I think as your body recovers these urges are in rhythmic cycles . Like for me arround day 10 mark then arround 2-3 week mark and so on
Day 6. Journal Entry. Daily Report. The night before today, I decided to do a blood test in the morning. Now I was struggling to get out of bed and almost was too lazy to get up. Trying to make excuses, like, "I can do it another time". Or. "Maybe you don't need to do a blood test, because it is uncomfortable." But I got my ass out of bed in the last minute. Did the blood test. returned home. No cravings during the day. So I just watched Supernatural on Amazon Prime until now lol. I talked with my accountability partner. I was kinda down today, and I noticed it. It kinda was a drag to talk for me. But that's part of the journey. PMO abstinence is going to be a hell ride. And I actually feel ready to take it by the horns now. So now that I am writing this. I am going to watch a little bit more Supernatural maybe. Maybe not. Will definitely do some breathing exercises and or play my vision tape + affirmation or do a visualization exercise before sleep. See you tomorrow. Take care.
Day 6/90. Ran, did a lot I wanted to today. Tomorrow will be another busy day earlier on, but I think I'll be able to relax a bit more in the afternoon. Meditation has helped a lot.
You've got this man. Come back stronger this time. Keep the end goal in mind which is to beat the addiction.
Day 3: missed Church this morning but owned up to it with humility and made the best of another sober day.
2 weeks in now. I caught myself mentally undressing a woman on the street. It lasted about 20 seconds before I stopped. I need to be better about that inthe future. One day at a time.