Hello everyone, An update of the the last few days- I have not P'ed, M'ed, or O'ed, but haven't been working on that much self-improvement. Although I haven't relapsed/slipped up in any way, I feel NoFap is not just about abstinence from addictive habits, but also self improvement and building yourself up. I am not being hard on myself, as it has been christmas, and I did get a little sick over the last 2 days but I am feeling better, but I am resetting my day counter to 0, so I can start fresh, and continue to build discipline and positive habits. Over the last 2 months, you will see I had relapsed into M again, but haven't ever once relapsed into porn. Even though I have come this far in my journey, I wanted to share that you can't just turn a blind eye at this point in time- I have experienced that too many times in the past where if you lose self-discipline (and say to yourself 'I've recovered' or whatever), the next thing you know, you could have relapsed completely. whenever I have thoughts about porn now, It's always been about the trauma, pain, distress it caused me. I guess that has been a huge driving force so far. Basically, I've started fresh, and started strong, and continuing to build positive habits and accomplish my goals. I wish everyone else in their recovery. Day 0
I just ended my 12 days streak. I don’t know how I managed to see porn on Twitter and I was hooked. I watched it over and over again. I was mad horny. Then my ex called my she was coming over, I was mad excited, I started watching it again. I even saw drops of semen on my genital. So she came, I was acting abnormal around her. She’s told me to stop so many times but instead, it turned me on. I wasn’t wanting to turn off the urges and emotions. I could control myself tho but I didn’t want to because I wanted to O. I hate myself for been all over her. I hate myself for been needy around her. It was like a charm. We later had Sex and Tbh I wanted more and more. I just wanted to keep fucking her. I don’t know why I behaved that way.
im so agree with you and what a MAN move right here Without positive activity nofap is just a time bomb, waiting for relapse..and there is no end for that always the same cycle no mather how far your streak is no swlf discipline mean failure Youre move inspiring me to get better in these nofap..thank you my fellow sparta for showing the ways