Start again

I am going to start again my journey.. I relapsed badly on and on and on and on.. but I am tired of this shi**, time to put myself in once piece, accept the pain that I am running from and face life, time to start over again.

You reach a point where porn and that high feeling you feel, lose their intensity, you do it just because.. you don't really want to do it becuse you know it's not helping at all but looking around, there's nothing to help ease that inner pain, so you come back to it again and again, well, no more for me.

I experienced the super powers and then I lost them, and then I fell into desperation for those crazy super powers ( super memory, super clarity, super inner stability, super motivation, super inspiration ).. so I know what's waiting for me.

Day 0 starts now.

 

I am still "fighting" but it seems that now, after so many failed attemps and after so many years of addiction, I am experiencing withdrawal symptoms, I am cranky, very iritated, I experience brain fog and my mental power is very weak, I can't do shit. Welcome to the shitty world of giving up pornography and masturbation, your body screams for more but you know more is not an option.

From my words here you can see how cranky I am. I feel like I was hit by a train.

Listen to my humble advice, if you are young, just do not do it, you will regret later and you will wish to turn back time.

 

Something had to change, tired of vicious circle of porn and masturbation, never actually helping me, just prolonging the agony.

I know how hard it is to even start, but after you start and after a while, it gets easier, except that in my case, I am facing withdrawal symptoms.

Yes, I know those super powers, I experienced them quite several times in my attempts to free myself from this addiction, those were the best days, so much energy, inner peace and an amazing mental clarity...