I fucking failed at day 5, I´m ashamed and disapointed on myself

Yeah its not very fun. Try to remember this feeling next time you want to relapse.

 

Don't feel bad. I've relapsed again and again even on day 0 starting over with a firm resolution to stay clean. My past failure are a great reminder not to to take the disease of addiction for granted. I am clean today. Tomorrow i will make the same commitment and as God to guide me throughout the day. May your past experience strengthen you to go further from addiction with each day that passes.

 

OK. Easy. I really understand your feelings right now. Next time you will get better if you learn this mistake. I'm sorry to tell this, but you did not relapse. You just cut PMO a bit. Sure, if you were PMOing couple times a day or more, it is an already an improvement. I see a lot of guys here who have months of clean streaks or even years of clean who 'relapsed'. You need more strategies, more emotional management techniques to overcome this addiction. You need information, tools and full of arsenal like all of us. I rarely see here guys who simply said "I'm quit" and quits in their first try.

I hope you a good journey!

 

12 step SA will push Progress Not Perfection. Basic sexual desire is similar to eating and breathing. It’s hard to just flip that switch. You can do it a little more each time.

 

I forgot to add that Shame is a huge motivating factor for continued inability to do better. Troy Love has fantastic resources on this topic.

 

I had the exact same problem, and kep going for two days after. But exactly at that 5 day mark. I am going to try again here myself. It's so dissapointing to fail, but you just have to get up and keep trying again there is no other way.