Was just wondering if something like "addiction capacity in correlation with brain" exist ! I'm not sure if it's true, but what if....... . There exist people who are able to balance their addictions along with their normal day to day work, and even if their addictions(for eg- smoking, drinking, or even masturbation & porn, for instance) cross their "addiction capacity", their lives are not that much affected. So, is there any type of brain capacity within an individual that's high among them? We say IQ, EQ, AQ differ from individual to individual. Is there any sort of "addiction intelligence" among population that exists as a different dimension of the brain? And if it exists, is it genetic or acquired? And if someone is trying to getting rid of these addictions, does it mean he or she is emptying his brain out or filling in it something good else like a vessel? And if someone does not need of doing that(like I just mentioned above), does that mean he has a large vessel for addictions(brain capacity) ?
Ive been thinking about this a lot. Im pretty much sure that all of my friends watch porn and do the PMO, but they will never know how bad was it for me and what I had to go through when I decided to quit. It just doesnt Work the same way for them. What I learned about myself is that I always had high 'Susceptibility to addiction' thing. Since a kid I was looking for something that I could use as a 'stimulant'. Part of it must came from my genes because my family from dad side had a lot of alcohol addiction problems. But it is also my personality that had something to do with it. Ive been always looking for ultimate happines and strong excitement and I found something that fulfilled my needs - PMO. I discovered that I tried to abuse every single thing in life that brought me pleasure, happines or excitement. That kind of brain is really fucking dangerous and Im glad I always had family by my side because I could end up as some junkie zombie and I mean it. Now Im starting to realise that Porn is not the problem, masturbation is not the problem, problem is the way we look at it and how we use it. If I didnt abuse masturbation and porn during my teens, there would be nothing to talk about. But I did this to myself and I had to Pay the price. Good thing Im aware of that stuff right now and I can start to really live my life.
So you mean it's not actually the capacity but it's one's perspective or the type of thinking patterns he or she has for so called "susceptible abuses".
Yes I think so. From my experience so far it seems like a good answer for many of my questions that I asked myself during a reboot. I always looked at things from different angle than most people and so I did with porn. Sure thing that genes and my individual brain 'settings' played a big part of it, but I think its the way I used pmo and the way I saw women and sexuality in general was the main mistake. Its hard to Tell if I could avoid this or it was just meant to happen because I was born like that. Probably both.
