Good pm guys, this is day 5 of nofap, still having the temptation to M but I'm struggling to set my mind on the more important things by channelling the Urge and energy to M into learning a new skill this lockdown period...
Day 2 of 90. Keep my head up really determined to leave that crap behind me! I know tho that there will be hard times, a rollercoaster days.
Day 3. I'm currently engaging with another community for self growth. We are doing exercises together. It is helping alot. I'll try to keep you updated. Keep going strong!
Day 10 of 90 Feeling good, my mind is just a little scattered and I'm having persistent headaches, nothing unbearable. The motivation to do this is there!
Day 7/90 No PM Day 440 at attempting this challenge Day 155 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol Wow, one week in already ... Okay it felt like a fucking year but at least I made it without PMO ing. A good milestone to get to one day at a time. Enjoy your day, brothers.
Another reset. Just like on Monday, this is something I would have let myself get away with a few weeks ago. 10 minutes of typing in some keywords, not really finding or seeing anything, touching myself a bit and then stopping. And then it would grow a little longer and more intense week after week, keeping the addicted part of myself on life support. I know what happened and what to be aware of. I’m having trouble working at home, I’m not as productive as I want, distracted a lot. Which I don’t accept as an unavoidable part of the current reality, like I should, but instead I beat myself up over it. So that towards the end of today, I feel shitty and I long for an escape. Now I’ve managed to persuade my head that the websites and scenes and stories I went to in the past are off limits now. But then there’s always something recent I’ve come across - this time that same story I stumbled across on Friday - which is new and fresh and not yet cemented in the ‘don’t go there’-category, so I let myself sniff it. So, what I need to do: 1. Accept the stress over working at home, accept that I’m not as productive as at the office, and focus on everything I’m doing instead of what I’m not doing. 2. Recognise immediately when I come across some material that I know will activate my addiction and adjust my siteblocker in such a way that I have no way to revisit it.
