Day 3: Got up early this morning for the first time in a long time. Feel like it’s going to be a wonderful day and start to the week!
Day 29 down! Felt much better today, most of the emptiness of yesterday vanished. Enjoyed the beautiful weather today (lots of sunshine), drove in my car for an hour or two and let my thoughts flow during this time, also had a very good and intense leg workout. I wasn't able to train my legs similar intense the last few weeks as I was last year. Good sign I guess. The truth about the emptiness I felt is that I'm not able to share all of this with someone. I'm a loner and I haven't ever accepted that. In order to let this emptiness vanish I have to accept it and become a lone wolf instead of a loner. If I can't accept myself, how can I expect that from another person - if I can't love myself, how can I expect that from another person. Life's hard but also very beautiful. I have the opportunity to turn my life around, accept myself and love myself. I still have time...
It's frightening how similar this stories are. You and I weren't aware of the negative affects of PMO on our life, we thought that's just our personality. "Oh I'm just not as confident as others, that's why I'm not good at talking to other people...", "Oh, I've never been good at giving a speech, I've always been nervous,...", and so on... However at one point, you and I questioned, if this PM is such a good thing as we always thought and tried to get away from it - and we couldn't. That was the point I realised that I have a major problem, I tried the reboot on my own and always failed after just a few days. It's nearly impossible to do it alone... Together we can do it! You made it to 90 days and so you're motivating me to do the same. No excuses anymore, no compromises anymore! All or nothing!
It's day 21, my resolve is strong and my feet are hairy. Praying for you all, brothers. Remember to take on this journey of change because of love, not fear. We cannot maintain our resolve simply by trying to avoid negative consequences and guilt; we need to remind ourselves daily that we are doing this for the ones we love--including ourselves!
Day 38, Over the last few days I've been having little to no sexual desires of any kind. At least it makes it easy not to think about PMO but looking forward to feeling a little more "normal" in the future. But for now this is just part of the journey and I'll see it through...
Day 3 completed successfully As I decided to make daily habit of reading rebooting material so today I read half of rise to greatness previous post and I will try to finish it by today and learn and improve myself from his lessons unfortunately I did not did mediation and studying for the careers in the morning so meditation day 0 And studying day 0 Need to concentrate on them and my addiction all the best brothers Towards porn free life One day at a time
Great to see that you are still going strong. It continues to be an inspiration that you are 75 days further down the road than I am. Keep up the great work.