My story is kinda simple. I have always been sexually stimulated even as a young child not knowing what I was doing. This slowly evolved as I realized that I wanted to look at porn and did this binding in my room under a blanket. This came and went with the times as I became more wanting and less wanting but the past maybe 2 years of my life have been plagued by these constant urges. As I sat next to my girlfriend of 5 years (that I have had some sexual contact with without fully having sex) this past Valentine's day I found myself wanting to look at porn. This feeling was painful as I finally realized that I was beginning to want to look at porn greater than I wanted contact with my girlfriend. This shook me to my core and I realized that I have to come to a conclusion on where I stand and what type of husband I am going to be. While I will not be married until I get out of college (nursing school done in 2023), I want to begin now and not only be the best boyfriend but best future husband to the woman I have now or the woman God has for me in the future. I think this starts by being loyal and I know that the path porn takes me on will be one of cheating on my wife someday and it hurts me to think that I could be that man some day. So this is the beginning of my journal, this marks day 3 and I hope to lost everyday. If you have questions or comments I'd love to talk I want to be engaged and am more than open to conversation. God bless.
Hi Simplericks, welcome here, and wishing you loads of strength and good luck overcoming your porn addiction. You can do it!
Heyyy welcome to the NoFap forum : ) It's nice to see you here fighting the good fight alongside us! First let me go ahead and drop some helpful links for you: Getting Started Guide / Forum Rules / How to Use the NoFap forums/ Glossary/ NoFap Panic button/ Set up your day counter / Rebooting Resources/ About NoFap/ Support NoFap Here is just some advice: First and foremost please take a look at each section in the forum, there might be something(s) you may find of big help to you. Feel free to post there :+) Then secondly I just advise you to be active on your profile(as there a few active people in the profile section). Please start by choosing an avatar and then make daily status posts to show you're active and needing support/encouragement. They've also got a neat little feature that shows freshly posted statuses for all users to see. People will find your profile and give you encouragement/support. Theres a portion of people who love communicating in the profile section..(it should be and is )mostly spportive talk but it doesn't hurt to deviate from supportive talk. It would be great to have you join in and support others in the threads, profiles, and journal. Make sure and be grateful for the help you received and give some help after receiving some. Invest in some people's journeys. We could always use your help and in return you shall receive some as well! Thirdly, You should also highly consider creating a public journal/log (in the appropriate section for you) and write about your days in more depth for us members to follow along your journey and offer support to you by way of posting in your journal. Last but not least: Good luck on your journey here, make sure to really give it a try with all your heart!
Hello again, I am not sure why but I took some time off after posting once. This was a mistake. Within the past 18 days I decided to combat it alone and failed around 5 times. This is a large step back from where I was. I hope to continue posting and keeping sober as I realize I cannot do this without accountability
Sounds like you need to establish exactly why you are trying to stop, and then figure out what triggers you to do something you really do not want to do. You may find you end up in an unexpected place when it comes to the reasons why you PMO.
