Need help - Fear of approaching girl

Thank you for your nice words @SirWanksalot . I think sites like this could be a gold mine for anyone who needs inspiration, because the journey can be very hard and most of times we think we are alone, we are the only bad ones going through such things and we do not deserve anything better from life. Luckily enough, reality is very different and we all can achieve more than we imagine: sometimes we just need someone reminding us how worth is fight.

I try to find my own "mentors" by reading a lot, watching videos and listening to podcasts about self development which include, obviously, subjects like these. I also discuss a lot with my trusted friends and learn from both mine and their mistakes. However, theory is always theory, so I always try to put myself out of comfort zone as often as I can and learn from my own experience.

Finally, to answer your question, meditation is something I have recently started to practise: it helps me a lot at night, before going to bed, in order to release the accumulated stress and to leave potential negative thoughts which I don't want to bring with me during my sleep. Additionally, it saves me from using the smartphone or any kind of device with a display before sleeping, which results in a better quality of sleep.

 

Nah man, you didn't fail at all, super proud of you!
Love that you are exploring to go out of your comfort zone and making these new experiences. Take it one step at a time on YOUR journey and make your own decisions.

And I guess instead of "slicing my hand through her body" you probably meant something along the lines of "sliding my hand across her body" lol
The first sounds more like from a horror movie ;-)

Anyway, proud of you and keep going. Reflect on what was authentically important to you, learn from it and keep building on it. That's all anyone of us can do anyway.
Best wishes for you!