satyam's journo

The Part of mind which supports PMO disappears somewhere just after the moment of ejaculation
Those remain are only guilt , disturbed mind, a lonely me and bad digestion which the mind would negate when the momentous high arrives

 

1 day and its casuality in the air,all my speed and effectiveness has been lost and the feeling that i shouldn't have watched porn at that time, highnesss can be suffered but the lowness is not very encouraging too jst at the peak time this negative ppart associated with it get erased and the feeling that if i don't do this porn watching everything would be perished persists there but the case is not so its just the mirage produced by a particular part of the brain

 

really feeling very sleepy and unenergetic lost all interest in things that are productive forme feeling of fear once again stared beaming in me

 

really feeling very sleepy and unenergetic lost all interest in things that are productive forme feeling of fear once again stared beaming in me

 

dont know wheteher it is 4th or 3rd or 2nd day bt feeling a bit more relaxation and effectiveness in my mind which was absent yesterday,and tomorrow it would be muuch better than today,bt some doubt is there in y mid for whether i can sustain this by tomorrow bcoz alot of forcing sensations were there iin my mind for today bt by using cold water i was suucessful to remove all the compulsions from my mind also kapal bhati helped me a ot in doing this i've to remain composed just for my tomorrow so that icould devlop that much needed effectiveness for tomorrow

 

today is mucg better than yesterday and tomorrow can be better than today if i allow myself to reamain contained today bcoz all of the things are in my hand and i am the controller of all of myactivities

 

i have done everything in the past itelf i have to be calm and just do my studies by being positive for the future without being taking care for such a large amount of time type of thought bcoz if i will pass ths tough time i am damn sure time will not be felt tough from the next time.